i just realized that like the only time i ever write in here is when im too upset to write it in my xanga cuz everyone will read it. if you want my xanga the link is
http://www.xanga.com/Im_n0t_your_staRxX i complain less in there. but yeah i dont know whate it even is. i felt fine all day and then like 2 hours ago i just started really tihnking about shit and i feel horrible now. my boyfriend treats me like shit i nevre really thought about it but hes such a disrespectful asshole. yet i still like him what the hell i dont even know why. id be upset without him but with him i just feel like i'm making an ass out of myself for putting up with everything. yeah i dont know.
by the way why is there so much shit now im just trying to post an entry. i hate this new layout.