Jul 22, 2007 13:18
Ok As all of you know I am moving to Mt.Vernon, Ohio. If you don't well now you do. Well I just told my mom today! She didn't take it too well at all. She was pissed off and then crying. She said that it's best for them(family) to go to Ohio but is it best for Becky?! I told her that is for me to decide.
Then she said that I will find the hard way that Ohio's school are very low and that I won't get the education I need. This is after I told her that Mt.Vernon's schools are top 4th or 5 th schools in Ohio. And she told me that I will learn the hard way that Ohio isn't for me. I told her then Let me learn the hard way,if you think I will make a mistake then let me, this is the only way I will learn. I told her I really want this, i am not ready move from my dad yet not til I go off to college. Also I want to be there when Danielle has her baby.
I don't want to miss out on my future niece or nephews' life. I don't want to miss them being born and then see them when they are 10 and then again when they are far to college or high school. And then she said "are you ready to be a sit-in babysitter"?! I said yeah cuz I have baby-sat before. Not undterstanding the concept she said "no I mean like you want to go some and then danielle does and ah can't go got to watch the baby. I told her it's going to be like that there's my dad,sue,alex and danielle's sister Brittany.
I told her if things don't work and I don't liek it down there. My dad has no problem with driving me back to her house and having me live there. And that you can come and visit me whenever you want for as long as you as long as you bring me back. Then I told her that I believe it is easier for me to separate from everyone now then when I go off to college. She said why?! I said because I will become more attatch to tehm when I go off the college and I will have bonded with them more. Which makes it harder for me to leave them when I do go and I believe doing tihs now will make it easier on me and them.
I told her I'm not doing this to hurt her but this is what I really want. And I would love it if you would let me go.When we were going back to my house, she told me that my dad(matt) should know about this. I told her it doesn't concern him yeah the decion making but you should let him know that you are leaving him. He has rasied yoy for 15 years and he loves you like you were he own daugther. I told her that this only between you,me and my dad. Yeah but you still let him know.
So now this is where I am at, and I have the hugest feeling in my gut that once my mom tells matt, he calms her down and everthing he is going to talk to me. And I'm ready to talk because I will prove to both of them that I am not a child anymore, I am a young adult that is able to make her decions. And it willing to take risks and if she makes mistkaes along the way let her because that is the only way she will learn. I am not longer a little girl anymore and they need understand that also my mom needs to learn to let me go. It's going to happen sooner or later and really I believe it's easier if she lets me go now then later when it hurts a lot worse.