Fuck LIFE
im sick of the bullshit.......you know fuck every time i try to commit to something it dies horribly......i caught myself cutting last night again...i havent cut in a long time.....sometimes i reallly hate myself...for thinking i could actuaully find someone like me whos had a hard life like me....that i can actually be with....i need something logterm something that cant be ruined like evrything ales.....if there is anyone out there......find me.............
.....it wasnt a happy sight.....fucking this girls not worth cutting for........but i dont think its just her....i think its a collection of the last 2 months.....i tried to play guitar last night its a lot easier to play than i would have thought........
sometimes i hold my breathe to seee....wat it would be like to die....i wish i could drown myself at times......:::tears:::: fuck im crying now.....goddamn it...y me huh........i know other people have had it just as bad if not worse but fucking why me......i feell so desecrated......i wish it would go away....i wish it was that easy......and i found out drowning worries and sorrows....doesnt work it makes things worse.......fuck i wish i could meet trent reznor......telll him how many times his music has saved my life........sometimes i really think im not gonna make it through......and then everyone tells me it willl get better..itlll get better blah fucking blah.....and its always people trying to telll not to do something i wasnt going to do in the first place...if i wanted to killl myself id be dead by now.....ya know...you would thhink i would get it right the first time huh......i know that someday i willl be happy but im sick and tired of now.....im ready for tommorrow but tommarrows not ready for me......i think im addicted to heart break......i think it should be considered a drug cause it will fuck you up a lot my than any drug could ever......im tirede of the painnnn......fuck it alll fuck this world fuck everything that I stand for......
.............................................can somebody love me for me ............................................................................BuNNy
.....it wasnt a happy sight.....fucking this girls not worth cutting for........but i dont think its just her....i think its a collection of the last 2 months.....i tried to play guitar last night its a lot easier to play than i would have thought........
sometimes i hold my breathe to seee....wat it would be like to die....i wish i could drown myself at times......:::tears:::: fuck im crying now.....goddamn it...y me huh........i know other people have had it just as bad if not worse but fucking why me......i feell so desecrated......i wish it would go away....i wish it was that easy......and i found out drowning worries and sorrows....doesnt work it makes things worse.......fuck i wish i could meet trent reznor......telll him how many times his music has saved my life........sometimes i really think im not gonna make it through......and then everyone tells me it willl get better..itlll get better blah fucking blah.....and its always people trying to telll not to do something i wasnt going to do in the first place...if i wanted to killl myself id be dead by now.....ya know...you would thhink i would get it right the first time huh......i know that someday i willl be happy but im sick and tired of now.....im ready for tommorrow but tommarrows not ready for me......i think im addicted to heart break......i think it should be considered a drug cause it will fuck you up a lot my than any drug could ever......im tirede of the painnnn......fuck it alll fuck this world fuck everything that I stand for......
.............................................can somebody love me for me ............................................................................BuNNy