Sep 01, 2008 17:59
I guess as I get older, I see a lot of my friends going through stuff that I did 3-5 years ago and beyond...everyone is getting married and having kids now, so I am able to offer advice, and warn against potential pitfalls. Now what gets fucked up is when you have a friend that's 8 years older than you finding out he's going to be a dad and seeing the reaction Jeremy gave when he found out I was pregnant, is rough. What makes it rough is that, Jeremy and I had a freak accident (our beautiful daughter), and in this guys case, he wasn't planning on marrying this girl, and certainly didn't want kids- she knew this, so it seems she stopped taking her birth control so that this would happen. I can't figure out how to feel because it's such a mixture of......well it's a jarbled fucking mess. Obviously it takes two to tango, but to deliberately fuck the rest of someone's life up just because you don't want to be alone is inconceivable! I am so angry right now, and I lost it last night when I found out.....I nearly passed out and threw up at the same time because I know how awful this situation is to be in, but even worse because I know that it's not going to go the way it did for Jeremy and I. I just want to hide because I don't know what to tell him- how can I?