Its been a while
Havent really writen in here in a while, but nuttin really has changed.Except for me and tony.. he started going out wit lauren again a month ago. and it really sucks... seems like me and him are growing further and further apart and it really sucks.. everytime we talk we get into some kind of fight.. he is my best friend.. we shouldnt be fighting that much...idk what to do...its like ive lost all my guy friends to there gf's and its not cool.. i still want him to come down this summer but it wont be the same unless lauren dumps him.. i really hope she does...thats just mean tho.. but i dont fucking care... i havent talked to jeremiah in a while either.. really sucks badly.. i miss his voice soo much...he could always make me smile no matter wat.. i loved that about him.. Alot more people seem to no about my depression now.. but they still wont except it..i try and hide it while im around people.. but lately i just dont seem to care very much... fuck them... they wanna no they should ask, not talk about me behind my back.Cotillion was fun.. richie was the best.. he was like the perfect date... I actually got to slow dance, thats a first for me at a dance.. i didnt feel like i wanted to cry.. yay for me...well im gonna go.. ill be back soon...