~7-7-03~
have u ever felt a connection with someone thatz so strong u feel like u could just burst....even if u barely kno them...they are the first thing on ur mind in the morning and the last b4 u fall asleep at nite..life is to short to let feelingz like that slip away...i mean life is too short in general...there are so many thingz i would like to do and accomplish before im too old to do them or not capable to do them.....i asked dylan if he had 3 wishes what they would be and he asked me the same ..and i mean itz not something i had 2 think about long and hard cause i think about that stuff all the time... 1. i want 2 fall in love and stay that way...none of this falling in and out of love bullshit...not that falling out of love isnt possible cause it is, but i dont want to be like that ..if i get that special love i want to hold on to it and never let go...2.would be that i would get noticed for my acting and be on the big screen one day...im workin on it...itz just something i have 2 do for myself cause ive learned that even with an agent u have to get out there and make thingz happen because ur agent will help u along the way but in all honesty u arent that all important to them if u arent already big...and if u dont have an agent itz even harder...i mean wow there are so many pple in this business and they are so ready to screw u over so u have to b prepared...and i believe that i am..and i mean i kno how 2 take the negative thingz im fed ...i kno that itz just what happenz in this business itz super hard!..3. that my parentz would accept me for me and accept the thingz i do and support me....and that is not happening at the time but ohwell they have time to change...and i still havent come out with my sexuality and such and haha i wont be doing that anytime soon cause i kno it wouldnt b ok...but they just dont accept me for who i am and it upsetz me ...i mean i support them in everything that they do and what do i get back in return...JACK SHIT! hah ohwell as i get older mayb thingz will change..um ok BRANDON STOP BEING A SHITHEAD UR MAKIN ME SAD...ok um anywayz...blah what else...good day 2day...mmm i love this song the start-gorgeous...makez me melt....