HmMmmm...
---- your hair, its everywhere... screaming infidelities... ----
yessss well thanks giving is over. joy. no more 1st holidays w/o dad thing to deal with. yea the 13th is right around the corner. i wonder if i have to go to school that day. its a monday. i really wanna go home to ohio... so i can visit his grave or something... but noooo. i cant do that. why does everything revolve around money. why cant you just flash someone and get on the damn plane. theres no need for money. lol. yea i miss the snow. i miss a lot of things... *** the past *** well some things can just be forgot but others i would like to go back to. okay so i want lots of money for xmas... so i can buy all my dvds and cds i want. mom ill send you an email for things im *wishing* for. lol. that song keeps playing over and over and over and over in my head. its sooo crazy. i hate it. your hair, its everywhere... screaming infidelities... omgeeez! i want to watch a movie. but we dont have anyway good ones... the day after tomorrow ive watched it 3 times and its not fun after that. i cant watch half the movies i liked back in the day b/c they all bring back memories of my dad. even the grinch... b/c my brother kevin was visting my dad that weekend from college and so i went over and he took me to see the movie in the theater... so yeah. cant even watch the flippin grinch. damn this. were going to my uncles from xmas... ahh the joy. i wont be able to look at him w/o crying. hes so much like my dad. the way he talks, moves, reacts... its all the same. i hate it sooo much b/c i miss him. but then i love it at the same time b/c i feel like its him, but its not him. and he prolly thinks im stupid everytime i look at him... b/c i look at him searching for my dad. but all i see is keith. its so hard. but i guess hes the closet thing i have to the real thing. so i have to appreciate him being there. well i gotta go. im sick of all this. gonna go call brian so i can think about other stupid things.... yea. bye. <3brittianna