reflecting
so its finally over... and official. I GRADUATED -- YAY!!!! it doesnt really feel like i thought it would, nothing really changed, just no more high school. no tears, kinda an unsure feeling - still trying to decide on a major for college, im doing nursing vs cosmetology right now.
im ready to move out, not that i completely hate it here, im just miserable being so close to home.
things in the dating department are looking up... thank god, its about time..... im soooooooo happy right now,,,,,, but after the shit ive been through in the last year, i of all people deserve it.
admit it to yourself... your not over me, and it makes me giggle. ive read the convos., ive seen the way you stare. you still care, its funny how in the end i came out ontop, i dont care anymore, i dont wanna go back, i won... i got the prize, i passed go and collected the $200. im a better person, im stronger, smarter and wiser...
like christina says, im a fighter.. so i wanna say THANK YOU!
ive gotten super close to school people here lately, its odd how right at the end before everyone splits to do their own thing, live their own lives... and start a new chapter of their life, then u get really close to them. mandi and laysha especially, i can be myself.. they're pretty close to elizabeth and derek too, which is even better. mandi moves to houston in like 4 weeks tho, bad cuz ill miss her, good cuz its still close to here, she's livin super close to montrose,, and my friend jeff lives about 3 minutes from her apartment.
my life has been pretty drama free.. up till this weekend.
josh is like a fucking liar. but he lies about stuff, that no 1 really cares about..... before he hung out w/ me, he had like NO friends. N.O.N.E..,, my friends swooped him under their wings and were awesome to him..... i warned them about his lying tho. mandi took him to prject graduation as her guest, suddenly halfway through the night, his phone never rang, went off or anything, he puts it up to his ear, causes this big gay drama scene and had to leave cuz something happened to his grandma.
so saturday afternoon im shopping in express.. i get a text from him that says "just got home from the hospital, she's gunna be ok... we still going out tonight?" i was like umm yeah sure, so 2 minutes later i look out, and he's walking infront of express.... yet he just got home from the hospital?.... so i call him once i leave the mall and ask how she's doing and what happend to her.. he said she had a stroke.. but she's coming home sunday. i was like wtf josh, u dont have a stroke and go home the next day... he said she cant move the left side of her body.. u just dont go home the next day, u have to recover, get tests ran, start physical therapy... its a process. so he was like sooo not tellin the truth about that, plus thursday.. he drank 3 bottles of tequilla? wtf... you'd be dead, after one bottle, you'd probably be in the hospital w/ alcohol poisioning, not dancing around like a homosexual at mojos. he lied a about his car, he really didnt have a bug..... he's supposedly been getting a mustang for the last 4 months... so he gets pissy cuz i accuse him of lying... yet he's all concerned about whos going out, and... well not his g-ma. so he calls john, who just happened to be with all of us hangin out, i answer the phone.. he thought i was john and made the mistake of sayin "everyone is goin out tonight, but probably not kyle... who cares tho, right?" i was like umm u had no friends b4 me, now all of my friends know ur a lying punk ass bitch... so he like called me a whore n said i have to be drunk 24/7 to even funciton.. i was like duh.. i live in beaumont, it sucks here, you have to be drunk to function at anything here. hahaha
other than that, things are going great... work is bleh, not that i dont like my job, i just dont like working., i wanna dress in cute clothes desk job... who knows tho, school starts in august - we'll see what happens.
i was reading back earlier.. over some old lj posts, its so odd how things change. aaron, i dunno if u can see this, you havnt posted in awhile, you've been on my mind.. it'd be awesome to talk to ya.......
its late, i have to get up early.... g-night guys <3
im ready to move out, not that i completely hate it here, im just miserable being so close to home.
things in the dating department are looking up... thank god, its about time..... im soooooooo happy right now,,,,,, but after the shit ive been through in the last year, i of all people deserve it.
admit it to yourself... your not over me, and it makes me giggle. ive read the convos., ive seen the way you stare. you still care, its funny how in the end i came out ontop, i dont care anymore, i dont wanna go back, i won... i got the prize, i passed go and collected the $200. im a better person, im stronger, smarter and wiser...
like christina says, im a fighter.. so i wanna say THANK YOU!
ive gotten super close to school people here lately, its odd how right at the end before everyone splits to do their own thing, live their own lives... and start a new chapter of their life, then u get really close to them. mandi and laysha especially, i can be myself.. they're pretty close to elizabeth and derek too, which is even better. mandi moves to houston in like 4 weeks tho, bad cuz ill miss her, good cuz its still close to here, she's livin super close to montrose,, and my friend jeff lives about 3 minutes from her apartment.
my life has been pretty drama free.. up till this weekend.
josh is like a fucking liar. but he lies about stuff, that no 1 really cares about..... before he hung out w/ me, he had like NO friends. N.O.N.E..,, my friends swooped him under their wings and were awesome to him..... i warned them about his lying tho. mandi took him to prject graduation as her guest, suddenly halfway through the night, his phone never rang, went off or anything, he puts it up to his ear, causes this big gay drama scene and had to leave cuz something happened to his grandma.
so saturday afternoon im shopping in express.. i get a text from him that says "just got home from the hospital, she's gunna be ok... we still going out tonight?" i was like umm yeah sure, so 2 minutes later i look out, and he's walking infront of express.... yet he just got home from the hospital?.... so i call him once i leave the mall and ask how she's doing and what happend to her.. he said she had a stroke.. but she's coming home sunday. i was like wtf josh, u dont have a stroke and go home the next day... he said she cant move the left side of her body.. u just dont go home the next day, u have to recover, get tests ran, start physical therapy... its a process. so he was like sooo not tellin the truth about that, plus thursday.. he drank 3 bottles of tequilla? wtf... you'd be dead, after one bottle, you'd probably be in the hospital w/ alcohol poisioning, not dancing around like a homosexual at mojos. he lied a about his car, he really didnt have a bug..... he's supposedly been getting a mustang for the last 4 months... so he gets pissy cuz i accuse him of lying... yet he's all concerned about whos going out, and... well not his g-ma. so he calls john, who just happened to be with all of us hangin out, i answer the phone.. he thought i was john and made the mistake of sayin "everyone is goin out tonight, but probably not kyle... who cares tho, right?" i was like umm u had no friends b4 me, now all of my friends know ur a lying punk ass bitch... so he like called me a whore n said i have to be drunk 24/7 to even funciton.. i was like duh.. i live in beaumont, it sucks here, you have to be drunk to function at anything here. hahaha
other than that, things are going great... work is bleh, not that i dont like my job, i just dont like working., i wanna dress in cute clothes desk job... who knows tho, school starts in august - we'll see what happens.
i was reading back earlier.. over some old lj posts, its so odd how things change. aaron, i dunno if u can see this, you havnt posted in awhile, you've been on my mind.. it'd be awesome to talk to ya.......
its late, i have to get up early.... g-night guys <3