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What is love??? I mean if you really stop and think about it, what has it been for you? For me, it hasn't been much of anything but random fights, lies, cheating, screaming, anger, lack of trust, unhappiness, some mental and physical abuse.... Is all of that worth the comfort of knowing that you "love" someone and that someone "loves" you? I have found myself so aggervated, pissed, unhappy, depressed and a million other odd feelings wrapped up in one over the last few weeks. Everything is a fight with Johnathan. If I'd like to see him, I have to fight for it.......... I'm starting to wonder if it is worth it anymore. I continue to tell him what bothers me, what annoys me, what hurts me and what upsets me and fully knowing, sometimes he does the things anyway. Lord knows I can be a pain too, and I'm not blaming it all on him..... I feel like we have changed as individuals, not together. We don't enjoy the same things anymore, and we're just so different. I don't know what else to do, I just want to scream and be done with it, but there is that attachment, something holds me there....... Someone comment and tell me what to do, bleh I'm so lost...