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You always here about people finding their place. Well, I don't have a place. I have no place anywhere not even with my friends. I'm just there. The Backup plan if nothing is happening that night. Even if I do make plans...they fall through. Like tonight, all my plans fell through. First, I was suppose to do something with someone but yea that didnt work like always then someone else suggested something and I was like yea maybe. Well I come back and they are gone. Are you suppose to have a place? Because I just kinda go wherever. I'm just a little bit tired of it. Maybe, I'm not suppose to fit in with these people that are my friends. I'm so confused right now. I think that this part in my life is the most confusing it will ever be. I don't know if it is like that for everyone but I just wish it would go away. Maybe its becasue its my freshman year, but I wish it wasnt. I wish I was a senior so I could get out of this place and away from the drama. But dramas going to be everywhere. I know it sounds like I hate my life...but I don't at all. I love my life and the people in it. I am just confused right now and I guess in highschool everyone finds their true friends, the people who they fit in with, their place in highschool, and their group. Some do sooner than others though. I guess I am just lagging behind some people. I haven't hung out with some of my good friends in like months. My best friend that I have known forever I haven't hung out with since the end of summer. I miss her, we had some fun times together:-\ My other best friend I haven't hung out with in like a month. I want to go to spring break with both of them...but I don't think they want to go with me. My mom was going to take us to Florida but I guess me and britt are just going now. I miss my friends:'(