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i am fucking SICK of this..fucking sick of wanting someone that i cant have..and him being the only person that i want right now..i havent gotten over it in the slightest bit..i still cant sleep..every time i fall to sleep i have dreams of what used to be..and i wake up either crying hysterically or thinking its reality and then i realize that it ( Read more... )

arite im definetly making my journal friends only..gosh..stupid anonymous people!! except shayna cuz i love her ( Read more... )

arite so its been a while..3 days..lol...im feeling better..not totally healed..i wont be for a long time..but ive taken a vow of sobriety..nothings really been happening..monday night i had a panic attack and put a knife through my wall..so kristen and phil had to come babysit me..the next day i got in a huge ass fight with my mom and wasnt ( Read more... )

im not gonna be updating for a while..can everyone just be supportive or shut up cuz im shattered enough as it is..i kno everythings my fault..i kno..god..the guilt is suffocating me..
just leave me alone..

today was good..hung out with kristen, she slept over last nite..inbars sick of us so she didnt sleep over..but i love her nonetheless ( Read more... )

i think im dying inside ( Read more... )

today rocked big bad ass man ( Read more... )

so today was awesome although it passed by in somewhat of a blur..got to school with a full water bottle of cafe liolita..drank half then gave some to kristen ((who was already quite fucked up)) and then spilled it down the drain cuz it tasted like herbal medicine..yuck..so i walked all the way to the 3000 where i was molested with glitter by bk.. ( Read more... )

so today was great..school was fun..got to miss spanish cuz i was sleeping since i couldnt wake up or breathe this morning..yayy ( Read more... )