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I m so confused right now .. i got off work early @9 so i washome at 9 30 so i was like lets go see a movie to jess'n'james and so we went even tho jess had to work at like1 o clock in the morn anywho we bought tix for ((the chronicles of riddick)) yaya mmm yah Vin Diesel yum anywho hes like sweaty and doing stuff with his arms throughout the movie mmmm anywho where was i oh yah . so we had like an hour to spend before the movie ..,.. so we got to starbucks and i saw trav.. but it didnt really cli8ck in my head that cory was with him til i saw him./.. but i was uncomfortable going over there bc trav was there (< previous history: trav .. me .. bad... he betrayed me and now he talks crap on me ) and his sisters friend and someone else and cory so i was like no and i knew he saw me .. but he didnt even acknowledge my presence.. like he didnt even know me.. now weve been together for a year and 3 months i would think hed recognise me.. i felt like nothing.. and i figured.. he had been drinking ...(< also previous history: a promiose not to.. for both of us ..hiding it.. not wanting to tell me ... < guilty anyone?>) which he kneows is bad... anywho .. yah i felt like a big piece of nothing.. so we went over to the wall where we usually wait... where james was talking baout how messed up it was.... ( fuck i know) anywho i tried so hard not to cry but i think u could tel . that i was inside.. :( i didnt let any tears out tho.. then we saw shea... man it just depresses me bc... james was being all sweet to jess.. and then shea comes and i tell him his gf..is in hte movies so he goes all the way back in there just to see her.. and hang with her for awhile...anywho ... and. i can tell that he loves her its just evident.. and james too.. just sometimes i can sometimes i cant tellif cor does or doesnt..it seems like in private he does and in public its a chore.. and idk why.. man this is depressing .. i dont know what to do .. i mean .. idk what i mean.. im confused