Dec 30, 2004 00:31
Fred,
I'm sorry that you had to find out the way that you did. If I had more time, maybe we could have done it right, but that probably would have involved crying until we had to stop for reapplication of mascara, and there just wasn't the time. Angel was confused, and being that this was a one shot deal, I had to make sure that our loveable dope ended up back with the program. Please don't think I've forgotten about the rest of you, that couldn't be farther from the truth. You've made me proud, and seeing you again gave me some peace of mind. I don't have to worry about you Fred, because if there's one thing I'm one hundred percent sure of, its your ability to find the good where there's good to find. Wolfram & Hart isn't my idea of a morally redeemable law firm, but if there's a way to take any of it and use it in our favor, you're going to be the one to discover it.
You're not going to believe this, but there were times when I was a little jealous of you. Before you came along, I was the only woman that the guys could count on. Take no offense, but at first you didn't seem like much of a threat; I never thought that crazy cave lady could start moving in on my territory. Then they got to know you, and they loved you. Some of them, well, two in particular, in very surprising ways. By then it didn't matter, I loved you too. You are the only living female who knows the kind of crap that those men have put us through, and you're the only other person I know who is strong enough to tolerate it.
I am going to miss you so much, but I know that this is my time. And just in case you didn't pick up on my subtle hints in the last paragraph, let me spell this one out; I'm leaving our boys with you. It's not the least troublesome gift I could give, but i guarantee, it's the best. Most people would stick you with a pin or a trophy, but you deserve more than that. Now it's your turn to be the woman who they go to for moral support and the occassional patchwork after slaying. I promise that they'll take care of you in the same way, just like they always did for me.
I think I've said all that I need to, I know, I said a lot. It's not easy to fit so many demands into one letter. If there's one last thing I need to do, I need to thank you. You were my co-worker, my friend, and my little sister. I'm sorry that we didn't have the opportunity to spend more time together, but I'm thankful for every minute that we 'wasted' on girl talk while we should have been researching. It ended up being more important to me than you'll ever know.
All my love,
Cordy.
P.S. I saw the way that you were looking at Wesley, please, do me one last favor and tell him how you feel!