we were just a good thing, we were such a good thing?
sometimes i just dont know about me.
i think i'm changing, all for the better though, so far.
today went smoothly, worked a long shift, had a fight with my car, went to grams to celebrate aunt and uncles birthdays. it was fun seeing tony dan and robin crusing in the labaron with the top down and no shrits on for a brief time. oh excuse me robin rocked out the black tie.
we ended up at dounkin dounuts as always and i always end up getting the wrong drink...bah this awesome kid hooked me up with the new tropicana coolata and it was good. wisly put as the orange drink we were served in grade school.
then 1400 people came. got to see pete henlen which was nice. hes a good kid.
i dunno, sometimes i wonder why i get the way i do around some groups of people.
its just the different way i am feeling i guess. i dont feel the need to be in center anymore. and if someone does not like being around me for whatever reason, thats fine with me. if some amends were made...which if it not being the fear of rejection (i would have already done so)....i would be okay. not great bc of the emotional state of change im going through, but i would feel so much better about, well, me. theres so many things i need to let go of, but why put myself through it, ya know? theres no logical answer yet so im just gonna keep changing, and strive for the better...the happier me for everyone.
sorry,
i think i'm changing, all for the better though, so far.
today went smoothly, worked a long shift, had a fight with my car, went to grams to celebrate aunt and uncles birthdays. it was fun seeing tony dan and robin crusing in the labaron with the top down and no shrits on for a brief time. oh excuse me robin rocked out the black tie.
we ended up at dounkin dounuts as always and i always end up getting the wrong drink...bah this awesome kid hooked me up with the new tropicana coolata and it was good. wisly put as the orange drink we were served in grade school.
then 1400 people came. got to see pete henlen which was nice. hes a good kid.
i dunno, sometimes i wonder why i get the way i do around some groups of people.
its just the different way i am feeling i guess. i dont feel the need to be in center anymore. and if someone does not like being around me for whatever reason, thats fine with me. if some amends were made...which if it not being the fear of rejection (i would have already done so)....i would be okay. not great bc of the emotional state of change im going through, but i would feel so much better about, well, me. theres so many things i need to let go of, but why put myself through it, ya know? theres no logical answer yet so im just gonna keep changing, and strive for the better...the happier me for everyone.
sorry,