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Today (or should I say yesterday) was absolutely horrible. But I did throw my lava lamp in the middle of the road and shatter it all into a billion pieces, much like how my mind feels. Now it looks like someone walked by and puked up foam, water, yellow clumpy lava and glass in the middle of the road.
I can't stop sneezing.
I finally broke down and called Michael at like one, cried twice (but he doesn't know that). I wanted to see him, but oh no, I should have known things wouldn't work out like planned because nothing about today (or yesterday) has.. or probably will. He's supposed to come by later this afternoon, but... I don't know...
I really wish I could sleep. But I kinda like the torture.. yeah, not really.
My Mom totally does not care about Monday night, it's nice to know that she helped make me miserable for no reason.
I kinda want to go to Josh's right now and stay there and not talk to anyone and just disappear into their little world. I never knew how much I miss those guys until now..
Busy day Saturday, I think Matt's coming back, and I have to stop by Josh's to see Randy. Plus the ever daunting task of asking the male parental, who has since moved and hour away from me, for money so I can go buy much needed clothing.
I think I'm going to go smoke another cigarette and enjoy the fact that I can't sleep the rest of tonight, followed by a million more cigarettes.
I can't stop sneezing.
I finally broke down and called Michael at like one, cried twice (but he doesn't know that). I wanted to see him, but oh no, I should have known things wouldn't work out like planned because nothing about today (or yesterday) has.. or probably will. He's supposed to come by later this afternoon, but... I don't know...
I really wish I could sleep. But I kinda like the torture.. yeah, not really.
My Mom totally does not care about Monday night, it's nice to know that she helped make me miserable for no reason.
I kinda want to go to Josh's right now and stay there and not talk to anyone and just disappear into their little world. I never knew how much I miss those guys until now..
Busy day Saturday, I think Matt's coming back, and I have to stop by Josh's to see Randy. Plus the ever daunting task of asking the male parental, who has since moved and hour away from me, for money so I can go buy much needed clothing.
I think I'm going to go smoke another cigarette and enjoy the fact that I can't sleep the rest of tonight, followed by a million more cigarettes.