all i've ever wanted.

[xxclovergrrlxx]

i've never wanted so badly to take back something i've said. i think i really messed up.

i'm starting to wonder if maybe i just can't make her happy.

i used to look at her, in an abusive relationship of the worst kind. and i just thought, she's so wonderful... she deserves so much better. i'd give anything for the chance to treat her like she should be treated. i'd give anything to make her happy. i could make her happy.

and, i don't know, i guess i just fail.

some things can't be unsaid.

once i wanted to be the greatest
no wind or waterfall could stall me
and then came the rush of the flood
the stars at night turned deep to dust