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well renee's back now so i have sum company again lol i think we're goin out to bugaboo tonite it should be fun, get drunk and sing karaoke lol.
so jawn called me last nite. that was interesting....its like we don't even 'click' anymore...i don't know it could be cuz we hardly talk to each other anymore, but still it just felt so distant. i think its pretty well over between us....i mean he obviously doesn't care that much about me if he doesn't want to take time out to even write me a short email to say hello...just to see if i'm still alive...i just don't know wut to do anymore...like i said a million times beforei don't wanna lose him but if this is all he wants i have to try to move on....i really don't want to though....i think about him all the time and all the good times we shared and i can't imagine not being able to spend time with him anymore....he always said it was just the distance keepin us apart so i guess we'll see wut he thinks once i move to hali and we're together again....we really have to talk though and i'm gonna have to put my foot down and not let him walk all over me cuz thats usually wut happens. as much as i hate to admit it i normally do anything he wants me to do. i argued with ashley at the time but i now realize that its true...when he says jump i say how high. i swore i would never let a guy take over my life but here i am doin it and theres nothing even keepin me to him. absolutely nothing. i just gotta go home and try to talk to him and then if he can't give me wut i want i'll have to say goodbye
anywys i guess thats all i have to sa for now, i just keep repeating myself anyways so
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so jawn called me last nite. that was interesting....its like we don't even 'click' anymore...i don't know it could be cuz we hardly talk to each other anymore, but still it just felt so distant. i think its pretty well over between us....i mean he obviously doesn't care that much about me if he doesn't want to take time out to even write me a short email to say hello...just to see if i'm still alive...i just don't know wut to do anymore...like i said a million times beforei don't wanna lose him but if this is all he wants i have to try to move on....i really don't want to though....i think about him all the time and all the good times we shared and i can't imagine not being able to spend time with him anymore....he always said it was just the distance keepin us apart so i guess we'll see wut he thinks once i move to hali and we're together again....we really have to talk though and i'm gonna have to put my foot down and not let him walk all over me cuz thats usually wut happens. as much as i hate to admit it i normally do anything he wants me to do. i argued with ashley at the time but i now realize that its true...when he says jump i say how high. i swore i would never let a guy take over my life but here i am doin it and theres nothing even keepin me to him. absolutely nothing. i just gotta go home and try to talk to him and then if he can't give me wut i want i'll have to say goodbye
anywys i guess thats all i have to sa for now, i just keep repeating myself anyways so
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