lookin a lil brighter again
well things are a little better now i think...we'll see how tonite goes i guess...i went to the mall with ashley so he could "cool off' i guess u could call it, and it kinda worked he was still a little cranky when i got back but then we had a couple drinks of rum...i've discovered sumthin else that goes really well with spiced rum....ginger ale. now i know that doesn't sound good but its actually really good....anyways i think i had a little too much to drink...but that was quite a while ago so its basically wearing off now...which sucks cuz i really don't wanna do wut he wants...if i was still drunk i'd do it without thinking of it...lol when i'm drinking i'll pretty much do anything...lol anyways that's all i have to say for now, he just went out for a smoke with his sister and he'll be back in a minute lookin to be "entertained"...lol...wish me luck...this is the defining moment where i find out if we'll be back together or not..and that is something i really want..even though sumdays i feel like he doesn't even deserve to be a person...lol...ashley will appreciate that.....anyways
LATER DAYS!
LATER DAYS!