Epic Fail.....
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You're the closest thing I have to someone who holds me dear,
And it tears me apart that you're not here.
I wish things could be different,
That you weren't so far away.
That I didn't have to hide you from my family,
That you were by my side to stay.
I love you with my heart and soul,
You say you feel the same.
But your life I cannot control,
And your heart I can't bear to blame.
I actually love this poem. o_O
It's about how a few days ago a friend of mine who's connected to my lovely foriegn boyfriend (no names, =P) said that he was seeing some girl he works with (I won't use cheating because we never actually declared ourselves bf/gf or anything stupid like that. we were just together.). She's not really a friend though. She's like... my best friend last year who hates me this year for no good reason. She thought I'd get all upset and hate him BUT it backfired and I said "Good for him." because if I were 21 I wouldn't want to be stuck with a plain 13 year old halfway around the world. This is generally about how I wish the situation was different, but I know I can't control how he feels, and I can't blame him for making a natural desicion (decision? Idk how to spell =P). SO yeah.
Anyway, I fail epicly. I've ignored everything internet-related that I've had to do. I was working on making myself a new layout (hence the ugliness of the current journal) AND I had to finish a chapter for a DBSK fanfic I'm working on.
OK So my fandoms change wayyyy to often. For the past... 2 weeks I've been a Super Junior fangirl. Mostly KiHaeTeuk (Kibum, Donghae, Eeteuk). and when I say fangirl, I mean obsessive. Like OMFGGG BRING ON THE LOVECHILDREN!!! (...you never read that.... <.<>.>)
And that goes onto my other excuse for being uber lazy. My new zune. My baby. MY LOVECHILD XP. Evangeline Kim. Yesh. I SAID IT. (and I used Kim because Kibum is my ultimate favorite out of KiHae/KiTeuk/HaeTeuk)
I've dedicated almost all of my free time to putting stuff on her (LMAO. Pervert mind.) and watching videos and getting new music and checking out the software and listening to this podcast, Twilighters Anonymous that is THE SHIT.
So I will stop my newlyfound lovechild obsession to not be lazy anymore! My threesome obsession will remain though. It should be over in about two weeks XD Then I move on to my EunHae, and then back to JaeHo. I'm so pathetically fangirly ^^;
In other news, I got $530 from my dad's side of the family for xmas and I spent $60 of it today at Borders XD I got two books, Nightworld 2 and Crank, and a Twilight hoodie. But it's a KICK ASS twilight hoodie!! I'll find a picture of it somewhere online and post it here.
Umm... Yeah. For now I guess that's all. I'm probably going to write a KiHae crack oneshot so be ready XD
xx
Mira luvs you! ^_^ (If you couldn't tell by now, yes I am on crack. WOOT)