Hello realization
So... i've wanted to update but it's like i have no reason to. I want to just write to get it out, and i know thats what this is for an how a lot of people use it, but it's just not like that for me.
Anyhow. A week ago today me and Shawn got into a huge fight. It was seriosuly bad. I went to work the next day and got sent home cause i couldnt stop crying.. he got sent home too. We pretty much worked it all out and everything is ok, not really back to normal yet, but it was our first real fight so it's wierd. Since we never really fought before a ton of things came out, all the shit we both had bottled up, thats why it was so bad cause we fought about so so so so so much. I'm so glad it's over though. I was so drained, i cried so hard.. i seriously thought he was going to leave me. But now i really do think we're stronger than ever... and Shawn wants to look for a house soon:) i'm just glad thats all over, so stressful.
As you can guess from that Valentines day was kinda fucked... we both worked and then were still so tired from all the fighting and lack of sleep that we just crashed. We both had Friday, Saturday, and Sunday off together though. it was so nice. Neither of us told anyone we had sunday off, we told everyone we worked snad just spent the whole day without any interuptions. Well here, i'll give a rundown of the weekend since i've got time to fill before work.
Friday: we slept in, so nice and it was bright an sunny when we got up. We lounged around for what seemed like forever, but it was really only from when we got up (like 10) till like 1. Then we went out shopping. I bought Shawn an awesome new (explicit) and the green to go with it since i got my tax return. He bought me new gauges, purple/black/white striped 1/2" plugs. I love them.. and my next step are my buddah ones.. stoked for that. Then we went out and had a nice dinner, came home and watched a few movies used shawns new (explicit) and had a good time.
Saturday: We got up around 8, i made an aweomse breakfast... Waffles, soy sausage, and smoothies. Gooood stuff. Then we drove down to seattle and went to the zoo with my mom, brother, and one of his friends. It was so fun. and i felt so in love the whole time. We packed a picknic and ate in the park, held hands the whole time, posed with the fake animals and took picture. It was like i never wante it to end. Since we took our own car down there we drove around for another 2 hours or so. Drove along the water on the east side and watched the sun set. Drove over and saw the freemont troll, drove areocc bainbridge island and back.. then we went to the video store and got the first two saw movies since shawn hadnt seen them and i wanted to get the 4th one. Went home, cooked dinner and watched those.
Sunday: Slept in, CLEANED. My house is fucking spotless, we did all the laundry.. and we have been keepit it up, pusing everything in the dishwasher, vaccuming every morning... good stuff. We're definatly ready for a house :) We got the 3rd and 4th Saw movies and watched those too.
And yesterday it was back to work and i've gottal leave here ina few minutes to go to work tonight too. I've only got Friday off this week and that's Shawns long work day so it suck. But ohh well, it's so worth it with the weekend i got to have with him :) Well time to get my shit together and go i guess. Really dont want to but work is work.
Bye.
Anyhow. A week ago today me and Shawn got into a huge fight. It was seriosuly bad. I went to work the next day and got sent home cause i couldnt stop crying.. he got sent home too. We pretty much worked it all out and everything is ok, not really back to normal yet, but it was our first real fight so it's wierd. Since we never really fought before a ton of things came out, all the shit we both had bottled up, thats why it was so bad cause we fought about so so so so so much. I'm so glad it's over though. I was so drained, i cried so hard.. i seriously thought he was going to leave me. But now i really do think we're stronger than ever... and Shawn wants to look for a house soon:) i'm just glad thats all over, so stressful.
As you can guess from that Valentines day was kinda fucked... we both worked and then were still so tired from all the fighting and lack of sleep that we just crashed. We both had Friday, Saturday, and Sunday off together though. it was so nice. Neither of us told anyone we had sunday off, we told everyone we worked snad just spent the whole day without any interuptions. Well here, i'll give a rundown of the weekend since i've got time to fill before work.
Friday: we slept in, so nice and it was bright an sunny when we got up. We lounged around for what seemed like forever, but it was really only from when we got up (like 10) till like 1. Then we went out shopping. I bought Shawn an awesome new (explicit) and the green to go with it since i got my tax return. He bought me new gauges, purple/black/white striped 1/2" plugs. I love them.. and my next step are my buddah ones.. stoked for that. Then we went out and had a nice dinner, came home and watched a few movies used shawns new (explicit) and had a good time.
Saturday: We got up around 8, i made an aweomse breakfast... Waffles, soy sausage, and smoothies. Gooood stuff. Then we drove down to seattle and went to the zoo with my mom, brother, and one of his friends. It was so fun. and i felt so in love the whole time. We packed a picknic and ate in the park, held hands the whole time, posed with the fake animals and took picture. It was like i never wante it to end. Since we took our own car down there we drove around for another 2 hours or so. Drove along the water on the east side and watched the sun set. Drove over and saw the freemont troll, drove areocc bainbridge island and back.. then we went to the video store and got the first two saw movies since shawn hadnt seen them and i wanted to get the 4th one. Went home, cooked dinner and watched those.
Sunday: Slept in, CLEANED. My house is fucking spotless, we did all the laundry.. and we have been keepit it up, pusing everything in the dishwasher, vaccuming every morning... good stuff. We're definatly ready for a house :) We got the 3rd and 4th Saw movies and watched those too.
And yesterday it was back to work and i've gottal leave here ina few minutes to go to work tonight too. I've only got Friday off this week and that's Shawns long work day so it suck. But ohh well, it's so worth it with the weekend i got to have with him :) Well time to get my shit together and go i guess. Really dont want to but work is work.
Bye.