Look right through me

[xxcarissaxx]

I guess things have been changing pretty damn fast, but it's all satying the same really.. i dont know i hate my life more and more but i love everyday. It's pretty complicated, but i really cant even begin to explain it, not even to myself

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[xxcarissaxx]

i miss you a lot too, we need to be able to hang out more, it would b really awesome if we got to live close to eachother again, i mean could you imagine that?

I'm not sure what me and shawn are looking for, i mena a house would be awesome, but we only have so much money, were looking at something under or just over 600 a month if possible, i mean we've found a few places, but nothing is what we want. We've looked at some apartments too, but i mean i really dont wanna settle for soething, i want somewhere that i feel comfortable.

I'll hvae to check inot them sometime, it's hard right now cause my schedual keeps on changing and i dont relly have too much time to do interviews and shit especially with my time line on trying to find aplace to live, but maybe once i get setteled somewhere i like then i'll check them out and see if they cant find me a better job!

I wish you felt more comfortable at clintons, i mean i doubt you would have really even had to see him. Haha, i mean i only talked to him for lilke 20 minutes total maybe, there were so many people there, proabbly atleast 100, it was pretty crazy. But it was fun. Once i get a new palce or you and ryan do we should have our own little part with some people and get hecka drunk together, cause i really miss how funny we used to be, and all of our drunk pics, hahahaha.

Wel i hope the rest of your work day goes well, loves!!

<3

YOU DUNNN KNAAAA MEE!!

[hummingbirddd]

i know, we definitely need to have a party when we get re-settled, and we'll invite our buds, and get drunk and be funny, and eat lots of food, haha. me and you need to do that together sometime too, just us two. we'll have like a sleepover or something, although...you're right about having a hard time sleeping without shawn, i havne't been away from Ryan in a year, i don't know if i'd be able to sleep without him either. anyway, i gotta go cause i've only got twenty minutes of work left, yay!