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....What have i become? a monster? a freak?... death is real, death is perminant... people say suicide is a perminant solution to a temporary problem but my problem isnt going to go away... it will be with me my whole life.. if they only see how much they hurt me, how much they bring me down, maybe things would change, but thats asking too much, this world isnt going to change, its going to be the same place for the rest of its existance... everyday my time slowly drips away as i drown in my agony... who knew trying to improve myself would hurt so bad... im sick of being a fucking emo kid.. what the hell...i dress the way i do to be independant..its fucked up because once a style of dressing rebeled against the goverment is now being advirtised on tv and in stores owned by fucking prep stores ... Hot Topic is not your guys god damn life, hot topic is for posers... you all are posers... little rebels for no reason ,every mother fucker decides they want to conform in being an "outcast"... what the hell... like scene kids fuck you, emo kids fuck you,and fuck all you little "bi" people.. you do it for attention ..please get over your damn selves nobody cares.. you dont even want that attention... ive been ridiculed for 4 years because im slightly different, to the point where im curled in a ball in the bathroom stall talking to myself and tears running down my face... this world has brought me to an all new insainity... tonight i walked down my road and relized i had connections with nobody... i relized i dont like any of you, please just leave me alone, you dont want who ive become as a friend...so much hate and so much sadness... please dont let me hurt you... let me spare you the pain... if only somebody was so kind to me.. i wouldnt have blood trickling down my arms every night