Deployment
I am currently deployed to Afghanistan. I am going to start to write in this about my feelings and other general deployment things that I do not need my chain of command know. Today my main message is about how I feel with being a woman deployed. Today I didn't feel wanted or needed. It is a common fact and joke in my unit that no one listens to me or hears my voice because I am a girl. This actually happens often and is frustrating when I say an idea and someone repeats it claiming it as their own when I stated it first 10 minutes ago. There is only one other girl in my platoon and she is not what one might say a friend or a girl (more butch than anything). I feel like all the guys are in a gang and I am on the outside. It is like a boys club only and I feel very lonely out here. I don't have anyone that I really connect with here. This is the first time I have felt this way, it is the most common theme in my feelings of deployment. In a place you can not be alone you can always be the most lonely.