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So maybe i would be lying if i said everything is alright. I mean my life doesnt completey suck but i know you can agree with me that i havent been having the easiest time ever. Ok so im in love. What else is there to it. Im in love and its as simple and as complicated as that. Every moment of my life im thinking about him. I even dream about him. So hes pretty much always on my mind. I wouldnt have it any other way, and im not complaining. Im glad i know him, & im so glad that i have met him. Hes like the man of my dreams. But ive got one problem. Hes not my boyfriend. Well at least were seeing eachother, but were not offically together. I miss him more than anything. He just makes me so happy, but its like when im not with him i want to be with him. I guess you could say i want to be happy all of the time. I want him back in my life as my boyfriend, the guy who told me he would love me forever & always. What happened to that? How could i have possibly let something like this happen? He was all i ever needed everyday. Without him im a wreck. I just wish there was some way possible that i could so him how much he really does mean to me. Im sure he knows, because ive only told him a million and half times, but i really want to show him how much he means to me. What am i saying i know how to show him how much he means to me, and i need to stop sitting around and really do something about it. I want him back in my life. So maybe if you cant tell, i have been in love with him since the minute i layed eyes on him. I had no idea what was in the future for us, but in that very moment he stole my heart. I wasnt complaining, because its his forever to keep- wheather he wants it or not. Hes always going to have a special place in my heart because he is the love of my life.
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Today=sucked
So the hospital i think im kinda loving working transport. I love the people i work with & i just love being there. Today was my first time going off on my own, and i got many compliments. I was told that i was doing a great job, and someone told me i should think about seriously getting a job in transport. Hah. Not my first choice. &&&&&&& then i got my new schedule. I was really pissed beacuase the only class that was supposed to switch was 5 hour and it was supposed to switch from speech to ideas in lit. And well my luck i got my fav. class- math switched to 5th hour and ideas in lit to 6th hour. Math 6th hour was the best class ever. There was like a million people in that classed that were like sweet as eff. lol. NE ways the new classes suck a hole. But preschool is the same so that makes me happy. Same lunch but everyone got switched out. I went from a table of like 15 to like 5 lol. Everyone left and now its just retarted! yeahh. Then i was supposed to babysit today and she never called and she never picked me up. That was sweet. So im kinda sick of this because im making ZERO money. So i had my dad take me to go pick up apps. for jobs. I got one for manhattan. Which i know i can get a job there easily because my brother used to work there and they like had a ceramony when he left because they loved him so much. I got one for Rite Aid, and also one for Hallmark. So tomorrow im turning them in and picking a few others up. Hopefuly i get a job because it will occupy me so i wont be sitting around and doing nothing with my life. And ill also hopefuly be able to get my car soon. That makes me happy for sure. Today was my grandpas birthday. I told myself all day i wasnt going to cry all day. Well i knew it would happen right after i got off the phone with matt i was crying until i got back on the phone with him. I shouldnt cry its not going to change anything, but its been 2 years and i do miss him alot. Well talking to matt made me happier and he was making me laugh. Theres no way i could be sad and on the phone with him, beacause he makes my life brighter lol. MHM one of my fish died the other day that kinda sucked. I thought both of them died but the one is fine so thats good. Thinking about getting another one becase it kinda looks depressed and lonely. wow im a freakkkkk &&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&& SNOWCOMING is comming up, 5 days =]. I cant wait to just spend the night with matt and have a great time. Im more then excited because i miss him so much and i wont get to see him alot. ASLkjalsdfja;lkf i cant wait lol. Its going to be nice to spend a great night with him and i just ahhhhh i just love him =]
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Today=sucked
So the hospital i think im kinda loving working transport. I love the people i work with & i just love being there. Today was my first time going off on my own, and i got many compliments. I was told that i was doing a great job, and someone told me i should think about seriously getting a job in transport. Hah. Not my first choice. &&&&&&& then i got my new schedule. I was really pissed beacuase the only class that was supposed to switch was 5 hour and it was supposed to switch from speech to ideas in lit. And well my luck i got my fav. class- math switched to 5th hour and ideas in lit to 6th hour. Math 6th hour was the best class ever. There was like a million people in that classed that were like sweet as eff. lol. NE ways the new classes suck a hole. But preschool is the same so that makes me happy. Same lunch but everyone got switched out. I went from a table of like 15 to like 5 lol. Everyone left and now its just retarted! yeahh. Then i was supposed to babysit today and she never called and she never picked me up. That was sweet. So im kinda sick of this because im making ZERO money. So i had my dad take me to go pick up apps. for jobs. I got one for manhattan. Which i know i can get a job there easily because my brother used to work there and they like had a ceramony when he left because they loved him so much. I got one for Rite Aid, and also one for Hallmark. So tomorrow im turning them in and picking a few others up. Hopefuly i get a job because it will occupy me so i wont be sitting around and doing nothing with my life. And ill also hopefuly be able to get my car soon. That makes me happy for sure. Today was my grandpas birthday. I told myself all day i wasnt going to cry all day. Well i knew it would happen right after i got off the phone with matt i was crying until i got back on the phone with him. I shouldnt cry its not going to change anything, but its been 2 years and i do miss him alot. Well talking to matt made me happier and he was making me laugh. Theres no way i could be sad and on the phone with him, beacause he makes my life brighter lol. MHM one of my fish died the other day that kinda sucked. I thought both of them died but the one is fine so thats good. Thinking about getting another one becase it kinda looks depressed and lonely. wow im a freakkkkk &&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&& SNOWCOMING is comming up, 5 days =]. I cant wait to just spend the night with matt and have a great time. Im more then excited because i miss him so much and i wont get to see him alot. ASLkjalsdfja;lkf i cant wait lol. Its going to be nice to spend a great night with him and i just ahhhhh i just love him =]