alot on my mind
I have alot of time on my hands lately, which leaves plenty of room for thinking about things I really shouldn't be thinking about.
What would have happened if I would have gone with my mom? Sometimes I think things could be better, but then they could be so much worse. I wouldn't have the love of my life, and I would have lost the opportunity to make the friends I've made. I've worked very hard to be where I am now. I tried so hard to gain respect with alot of people, but for what? For nothing. I feel like my efforts are worthless to everyone. I try so hard to be the best friend I can to everyone, but it seems like nobody cares. Everyone back home seems to be getting along better without me. Krissy and Jeni are close, along with Liz, Krystal and Fuller. Tracy has long since moved on without me. I really feel sorry for them, because I feel like I was the source of everyone's problems. I'm not mad at anybody for any reason. I'm not trying to make you feel bad or feel guilty, as I've been accused of many times before.
I just want you all to know, that I Love You. I Love You all in different ways. I Love Liz for her sense of humor and for her always being there. I Love Krissy for her slight flighty-ness and her crackhead attitude. Hoova for her happy go lucky attitude and always wanting to make people feel better. Fuller for her whole "love is blind" attitude.....
As For Tracy and Krystal, this goes out to you.
You two have been the only two people that I've ever been able to talk to and be comfortable. I can talk to you and I know you guys wont feel bad for me. I feel like the both of you understand me sometimes better than I understand myself. I know that I can come to either one of you with any problem that I have, and if you can't fix it, you will find someone who can. thank you.
Dann,
Baby, you've done everything any anything for me. I Love You so much, more than I could ever explain to you. I've never felt this way for anyone before, and it's the best feeling in the world. It's so wonderful to be able to look into your eyes and not have to say a word, and I know that you love me. You're the best thing that's ever happened to me, and I know that without you, I might not be here. Thank you for loving me the way you do, and putting up with me being so far away. I Love You, more than anything.
nobody has to comment, and especially if it's going to be rude. If you're going to be an asshole, I don't wanna fuckin hear it.
I'm not Broken anymore.
-Michelle-