I'm all smiles :)
Today was a good good day. One of my best days yet.
I woke up at 10:30, Dann called maybe 10 minutes after I woke up, he was pulling in my driveway :)
He came up and we chilled for a little while, watched some tv. Then I decided to get my lazy ass up and take a shower. Damn I smelled good lol. Then me and Dann walked up to CVS and 711 ALONE. Finally me and him spent a day together alone. It was nice to be with him and just talk all day. He really is all I've ever dreamed of. Maybe one day I'll get up the courage to spill my heart out to him, in person, instead of hiding behind the phone receiver. I'm terrified of being rejected, especially by him. I've never met anyone that I can totally trust like that, or anyone I could ever be myself around and it was okay... I can't believe I finally found what I was looking for.
okay he's gonna choke me if I get to sappy, so onto other things.my hair isn't fuzzy anymore :) new shampoo *wink* well, my dad took his vacation next week, so that means he'll be here all week, which sucks .... so either someone is coming to stay with me, or someone is getting me the fuck out of here :-D lol.
Fireworks last night! fun as hell, except my baby wasn't there ... :(. Me Liz and Melissa found a spot under the water tower, then Krystal and Brett bumrushed us and tackled me to the ground. lol, I Love that girl. she's my KRYSSERZZZZ!!! Then Jeni found us and we watched the fireworks in the sand, it was cool. The fireworks kinda sucked, maybe like 20 minutes and that was the end of it. We went to go leave and talk about fishflies, Jesus H Christ!!! Jeni took off one of her shirts put it over my head and told me to run, and I did lol. They were freakin EVERYWHERE. I'm getting better though, I'm not as afraid as I used to be, it was kinda fun running through them last night lol. Saw My cousin Jessica, that was cool, I miss her so much. Too bad she got into alot of shit she shouldn't have, it would be nice to have someone to talk to that actually understood me like I needed to be understood.
I want someone to talk to .. someone to confide in. I'm scared to open up. I don't want to end up like I used to be, I don't want to be sad, I don't want to cut myself. I want to be me, and I want that to be okay. I Love You Dann. Thank you for being that someone to change my world around.
Have a wonderful night everyone.
*~Shell~*
I woke up at 10:30, Dann called maybe 10 minutes after I woke up, he was pulling in my driveway :)
He came up and we chilled for a little while, watched some tv. Then I decided to get my lazy ass up and take a shower. Damn I smelled good lol. Then me and Dann walked up to CVS and 711 ALONE. Finally me and him spent a day together alone. It was nice to be with him and just talk all day. He really is all I've ever dreamed of. Maybe one day I'll get up the courage to spill my heart out to him, in person, instead of hiding behind the phone receiver. I'm terrified of being rejected, especially by him. I've never met anyone that I can totally trust like that, or anyone I could ever be myself around and it was okay... I can't believe I finally found what I was looking for.
okay he's gonna choke me if I get to sappy, so onto other things.my hair isn't fuzzy anymore :) new shampoo *wink* well, my dad took his vacation next week, so that means he'll be here all week, which sucks .... so either someone is coming to stay with me, or someone is getting me the fuck out of here :-D lol.
Fireworks last night! fun as hell, except my baby wasn't there ... :(. Me Liz and Melissa found a spot under the water tower, then Krystal and Brett bumrushed us and tackled me to the ground. lol, I Love that girl. she's my KRYSSERZZZZ!!! Then Jeni found us and we watched the fireworks in the sand, it was cool. The fireworks kinda sucked, maybe like 20 minutes and that was the end of it. We went to go leave and talk about fishflies, Jesus H Christ!!! Jeni took off one of her shirts put it over my head and told me to run, and I did lol. They were freakin EVERYWHERE. I'm getting better though, I'm not as afraid as I used to be, it was kinda fun running through them last night lol. Saw My cousin Jessica, that was cool, I miss her so much. Too bad she got into alot of shit she shouldn't have, it would be nice to have someone to talk to that actually understood me like I needed to be understood.
I want someone to talk to .. someone to confide in. I'm scared to open up. I don't want to end up like I used to be, I don't want to be sad, I don't want to cut myself. I want to be me, and I want that to be okay. I Love You Dann. Thank you for being that someone to change my world around.
Have a wonderful night everyone.
*~Shell~*