life is a vivid image torn my misery

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dude it really is scary getting closer to school and all ... i feel really scared to know i have to start all over but hey i cant change it and i know ill make awesome friends here... its really cold and i miss my sisters and bros john and christopher called me today surprise surprise! i love those boys... but yea it was nice... i just realized that i was on the phone with christopher today and i thought it was saturday ... and its not and so i used and hour on the damn phone im soooo dead this blows... but yea im just wow im shock i guess ... i read sum of vics things on my space and it makes me feel stupid oh well i cant change it ... i think that it was just a big mind game ... i dont really care anymore ... the real guy that i liked and wasnt alll Bleah was john and christopher ... i dont know why im saying this but it just amazes me that guys really do come and go ... i hope i get great guy in the future cause it would really suck to end up with a man whos shit and treats you horrible ... i dont wanna be on a missing billboard ad...that would be horrible... life is just to hard sumtimes. but .. oh well ... i guess im going to go .. and by the way i have develeped a new crush...!! and he knows i love him so ... he loves me to !!!!

shelby