Lots and LOTS
Okay, well, Nicole arrived yesterday. She and I went to two different book stores, the mall, and the store to buy a shitload of veggies. We decided to go on diets because we don't feel that our weights are that great. So... for the whole week we're only eating vegetable soup and drinking water. We went online and we went to GNC to discover our "ideal body measurements" and our weights and "ideal weights".
Mine are (parentheses = what I am now):
Waist - 26 (28)
Hips - 31.7 (34)
Bust - 34 (34)
Thighs (R,L) - 19.8, 19.8 (22, 23)
Weight - 120-133 (131)
I have gained five pounds because of birth control and I'm rebelling.
My goals are (for this week, because I lose weight insanely fast):
Waist - 26
Hips - 32
Bust - can't change that, really, although I would like to go back to a C
Thighs - 21, 21
Weight - 125
When I went to Planned Parenthood to get my birth control, I was 126. Now I'm 131. How sad is that? AND I've been monitoring my eating. I've gone from a 34 C to a 34 D and I'm pissed. I can't wear my pretty bras anymore and I can't afford new ones. I only have one bra now... and it's horrible. I hate my boobs now. I HATE THEM.
Last night we went to Gabby's for Kristin's birthday party, which was fun. I cut a hole out of the middle of the cake and ate it with Nicole, lol. So it looked like a giant donut. Anyway, during the party I talked to Piers on the phone. I apologized for my words and told him that I said them out of pain because of what I had heard and observed. He understood, then told me that he didn't want to build something with me "at this point in [his] life", but that he hopes that maybe we will have a relationship sometime in the future. I said, "Okay," and after the conversation I let all my friends hug me. It was nice... they didn't need to be asked or told or anything... they just gave me hugs without even knowing what the conversation was about. It made me happy.
Nicole loves my friends, which is wonderful. I've become so picky in my friendships and I usually just truly befriend the people that I know my best friends in California would love too. I'm glad I'm finally making the right decisions. It's great!
ELENA IS COMING TO UTAH! Elena... is... coming... to... Utah. *Parties.* Nicole for one week, then Elena for one week!? Do you know how friggin' awesome that is!? DO YOU EVEN KNOW!? Now I just need Emily, Stephanie, and Lia to visit me. And everyone else, lol. *Squee.*
I went to registration today and learned that they completely effed up my schedule. They signed me up for like... 5 classes I never asked for. One is Computer Tech, so that's okay... but the others!? I'm so confused as to why schools are so retarded when creating schedules. *Shakes head.*
I am officially a senior now. And in less than a year... I will be out of high school. And then I'm going to California. If my luck is purty, then I can go to CSU Los Angeles without going to Palomar first. I'm not quite sure how I like that. I think I'd be okay with just doing two years of general education, THEN going to a university. That way I could work and save up money. I'd work as a cashier at Albertson's and make like... $16-18 an hour, 'cause that's how much they pay. Niiiice. I'd be able to live at my ex-stepdad's for two years and save up money. He'd prolly have me pay like... $200-400 a month for rent, which is fine, if I work as a cashier.
Oh! And it's settled... I get to go to Europe for six weeks with Nicole after graduation! I'm so... friggin'... excited.
My world is turning around, finally. I know that I'll develop a hell of a lot more stress, but that's okay. I'm stressed as it is... but I'm dealing with it.
I haven't even started my summer reading. I really should, but I'm so lazy. >.< I have to finish it before Elena comes, though, or else I never will. o_O;
I'm buying a camera with my next paycheck. I don't care if I need a car. I can wait an extra month or two to get a car. In fact, I really don't need a car until May.
So... this is my plan.
By the end of...
August: $100
September: $400 (working 20 hours a week)
October: $700
November: $1000
December: $1200 ($200 for winter break)
January: $1500
February: $1800
March: CAR ($1600 + min. insurance = I dunno)
April: $300
May: $600
June: $1200 (working 30 hours a week)
July: MOVE TO CALIFORNIA
Yes, anyway. I'm tired.
Mine are (parentheses = what I am now):
Waist - 26 (28)
Hips - 31.7 (34)
Bust - 34 (34)
Thighs (R,L) - 19.8, 19.8 (22, 23)
Weight - 120-133 (131)
I have gained five pounds because of birth control and I'm rebelling.
My goals are (for this week, because I lose weight insanely fast):
Waist - 26
Hips - 32
Bust - can't change that, really, although I would like to go back to a C
Thighs - 21, 21
Weight - 125
When I went to Planned Parenthood to get my birth control, I was 126. Now I'm 131. How sad is that? AND I've been monitoring my eating. I've gone from a 34 C to a 34 D and I'm pissed. I can't wear my pretty bras anymore and I can't afford new ones. I only have one bra now... and it's horrible. I hate my boobs now. I HATE THEM.
Last night we went to Gabby's for Kristin's birthday party, which was fun. I cut a hole out of the middle of the cake and ate it with Nicole, lol. So it looked like a giant donut. Anyway, during the party I talked to Piers on the phone. I apologized for my words and told him that I said them out of pain because of what I had heard and observed. He understood, then told me that he didn't want to build something with me "at this point in [his] life", but that he hopes that maybe we will have a relationship sometime in the future. I said, "Okay," and after the conversation I let all my friends hug me. It was nice... they didn't need to be asked or told or anything... they just gave me hugs without even knowing what the conversation was about. It made me happy.
Nicole loves my friends, which is wonderful. I've become so picky in my friendships and I usually just truly befriend the people that I know my best friends in California would love too. I'm glad I'm finally making the right decisions. It's great!
ELENA IS COMING TO UTAH! Elena... is... coming... to... Utah. *Parties.* Nicole for one week, then Elena for one week!? Do you know how friggin' awesome that is!? DO YOU EVEN KNOW!? Now I just need Emily, Stephanie, and Lia to visit me. And everyone else, lol. *Squee.*
I went to registration today and learned that they completely effed up my schedule. They signed me up for like... 5 classes I never asked for. One is Computer Tech, so that's okay... but the others!? I'm so confused as to why schools are so retarded when creating schedules. *Shakes head.*
I am officially a senior now. And in less than a year... I will be out of high school. And then I'm going to California. If my luck is purty, then I can go to CSU Los Angeles without going to Palomar first. I'm not quite sure how I like that. I think I'd be okay with just doing two years of general education, THEN going to a university. That way I could work and save up money. I'd work as a cashier at Albertson's and make like... $16-18 an hour, 'cause that's how much they pay. Niiiice. I'd be able to live at my ex-stepdad's for two years and save up money. He'd prolly have me pay like... $200-400 a month for rent, which is fine, if I work as a cashier.
Oh! And it's settled... I get to go to Europe for six weeks with Nicole after graduation! I'm so... friggin'... excited.
My world is turning around, finally. I know that I'll develop a hell of a lot more stress, but that's okay. I'm stressed as it is... but I'm dealing with it.
I haven't even started my summer reading. I really should, but I'm so lazy. >.< I have to finish it before Elena comes, though, or else I never will. o_O;
I'm buying a camera with my next paycheck. I don't care if I need a car. I can wait an extra month or two to get a car. In fact, I really don't need a car until May.
So... this is my plan.
By the end of...
August: $100
September: $400 (working 20 hours a week)
October: $700
November: $1000
December: $1200 ($200 for winter break)
January: $1500
February: $1800
March: CAR ($1600 + min. insurance = I dunno)
April: $300
May: $600
June: $1200 (working 30 hours a week)
July: MOVE TO CALIFORNIA
Yes, anyway. I'm tired.