Just let the tears flow......
As i write this....tears are flowing down my cheeks. Today, to start off things off nicely, my keyboard up and dies on me...and i wasn't going to be able to get a new one until thursday. Mike told me he had a keyboard i could have, and i ran over to his house, picked it up, and i was doing better...then...Derrick decides that he is going to text msg me...and proceed to make me cry again. As usual, i fucked things up, because i was too depressed over my stupid decison to dump derrick, that derrick decides i'm too depressed all the time....welcome to this fucked up place know as my life. I actually thought i could have a relationship with derrick, and now....nothing....i just want all the pain...anguish to stop...just leave me alone...i never want to feel this again.....will i ever find happiness?? Fuck if i know....