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I HOPE EVERYONES HAAAPPY
since people that think they know me in this current incarnation better than the sole person ive been consistently interacting with for the last six months i guess im single.
if you really knew me you would know that i probably fucking hate you.
im physically disgusted by your pathetic grade school drama, and i cant fathom why anyone would want to spend that amount of time speculating and analyzing other people's lives, shit that has no bearing on your dull existence whatsoever. youre bored, boring, and stupid. not to say that im endlessly interesting and entertaining, but in my boredom and lack of ambition/motivation i dont sit around thinking about who anyone else is fucking or wanting to fuck or who hurt who's feelings. maybe it's because people like you dont have the minimal substance it would require to be selfish, self-centered or self-absorbed. things i will not deny, because being preoccupied with myself and my direct surroundings and decisions is enough. i dont give a shit about what or who anyone else is doing because i have my hands decidedly half full trying to give a shit about whats going on with me. and if theres nothing pressing ill waste an evening watching fucking hbo series, but you will never see me actively, eagerly engaging in the kind of thick bullshit drool you cant help swapping.
OHMYGOD SHELLY FUCKED SHANE BUT SHE REALLY WANTS TO BE WITH MATT AND NOW SHES MAD AT SHANE BECAUSE HE SLEPT WITH MARRY WHEN SHE WAS IN TOWN BUT SHELLY DOESNT REALLY KNOW IF SHE SHOULD BE MAD SINCE HER AND SHANE WERENT DATING AND MARRY SLEEPS WITH EVERYONE AND DID YOU HEAR ABOUT DESHAWNA AND RON DOING DRUGS OH HOLY SHIT THEYRE DOING DRUGS TOGETHER AND SHE SLEEPS WITH OTHER PEOPLE AND HE DOESNT EVEN CARE!!! HOW CRAZY! EVERYONE BREAKS UP AND GETS BACK TOGETHER AND BREAKS UP AGAIN THEY ALL CUT THEMSELVES EVERY OTHER FUCKING TIME BECAUSE IT'S ALL SUCH A BIG HUGE DEAL AND I CANT BELIEVE WE STILL HAVE TIMES FOR SCHOOL AND WORK IN BETWEEN ALL THESE HUGE DEALS
and im nauseous from taking the time to think about how worthless and petty these people are. who wants to spend their time talking about how other people spend their time? if being self absorbed keeps me out of this loop then thank fucking god. it's just infuriating when this stuff starts to affect my life. i dont care how many people want to waste time talking about me in any way, have at it, but i feel nothing short of violent when im drawn into it. i guess now that i dont have to maintain contact with anyone i dont have to be around any of these sad fucking idiots unless i just want to be mad. hows that for silver lining?
since people that think they know me in this current incarnation better than the sole person ive been consistently interacting with for the last six months i guess im single.
if you really knew me you would know that i probably fucking hate you.
im physically disgusted by your pathetic grade school drama, and i cant fathom why anyone would want to spend that amount of time speculating and analyzing other people's lives, shit that has no bearing on your dull existence whatsoever. youre bored, boring, and stupid. not to say that im endlessly interesting and entertaining, but in my boredom and lack of ambition/motivation i dont sit around thinking about who anyone else is fucking or wanting to fuck or who hurt who's feelings. maybe it's because people like you dont have the minimal substance it would require to be selfish, self-centered or self-absorbed. things i will not deny, because being preoccupied with myself and my direct surroundings and decisions is enough. i dont give a shit about what or who anyone else is doing because i have my hands decidedly half full trying to give a shit about whats going on with me. and if theres nothing pressing ill waste an evening watching fucking hbo series, but you will never see me actively, eagerly engaging in the kind of thick bullshit drool you cant help swapping.
OHMYGOD SHELLY FUCKED SHANE BUT SHE REALLY WANTS TO BE WITH MATT AND NOW SHES MAD AT SHANE BECAUSE HE SLEPT WITH MARRY WHEN SHE WAS IN TOWN BUT SHELLY DOESNT REALLY KNOW IF SHE SHOULD BE MAD SINCE HER AND SHANE WERENT DATING AND MARRY SLEEPS WITH EVERYONE AND DID YOU HEAR ABOUT DESHAWNA AND RON DOING DRUGS OH HOLY SHIT THEYRE DOING DRUGS TOGETHER AND SHE SLEEPS WITH OTHER PEOPLE AND HE DOESNT EVEN CARE!!! HOW CRAZY! EVERYONE BREAKS UP AND GETS BACK TOGETHER AND BREAKS UP AGAIN THEY ALL CUT THEMSELVES EVERY OTHER FUCKING TIME BECAUSE IT'S ALL SUCH A BIG HUGE DEAL AND I CANT BELIEVE WE STILL HAVE TIMES FOR SCHOOL AND WORK IN BETWEEN ALL THESE HUGE DEALS
and im nauseous from taking the time to think about how worthless and petty these people are. who wants to spend their time talking about how other people spend their time? if being self absorbed keeps me out of this loop then thank fucking god. it's just infuriating when this stuff starts to affect my life. i dont care how many people want to waste time talking about me in any way, have at it, but i feel nothing short of violent when im drawn into it. i guess now that i dont have to maintain contact with anyone i dont have to be around any of these sad fucking idiots unless i just want to be mad. hows that for silver lining?