the update, babes!!!!!! :)
so friday i went out to eat with mrs. simun at catalina coffee after tutoring. we told each other everything that was up and gawd we are two very nice people living very distressed lives at the moment. I am not at liberty to discuss any of the information she disclosed to me nor basically our conversation about my life, but in conclusion i have an adult to help me in the moving out process, i have a place to run to the next time i feel in danger from dad, and she says the stress will go away as soon as i move out.
anyway, so that was both helpful and traumatizing, because i have this thing i feel what the other person goes through when they tell me bad news and they're close to me. so i had major stress pains for the next couple hours, till i went to morgan's house and he calmly said that i can't be a psychologist if i do this, and they wouldnt wish it on me if they knew, so i stopped.
then he and cambrey and matt and i watched pimp my ride and laughed. then they left and just chilling with morgan took my out of depressionness.
then yesterday i went over to morgan's houseduring the day and drank irish breakfast tea in front of the fireplace (major ireland flashbacks) and then i talked to his bro sis and mom and then he gave me a foot massage and then my dad invited him over for lunch, and that went well. he noticed that dad has me n el to the point where we don't talk or look at people at meals, that was true and interesting. then we dropped him off and i babysat the back neighbors till 11.
today at the last minute i went to tina's bday party which was nice and funny when tony and scott realized the cream was bad looking at my curdled tea after they'd drank like 9 awwwww poor guys the look on their faces! lol
then i learned to play drums which was really cool! i'm really good, since my dad was an ear musician i inherited it he said.
(p.s. everyone else in my family seems to be doing better than ever, or well, i dunno about elliot, but my parents. but 4 me the depression that threatened for so long is like touch and go, but morgan takes it away and really really helps because he understands me and only another month or so...)we'll see how this goes...
anyway, so that was both helpful and traumatizing, because i have this thing i feel what the other person goes through when they tell me bad news and they're close to me. so i had major stress pains for the next couple hours, till i went to morgan's house and he calmly said that i can't be a psychologist if i do this, and they wouldnt wish it on me if they knew, so i stopped.
then he and cambrey and matt and i watched pimp my ride and laughed. then they left and just chilling with morgan took my out of depressionness.
then yesterday i went over to morgan's houseduring the day and drank irish breakfast tea in front of the fireplace (major ireland flashbacks) and then i talked to his bro sis and mom and then he gave me a foot massage and then my dad invited him over for lunch, and that went well. he noticed that dad has me n el to the point where we don't talk or look at people at meals, that was true and interesting. then we dropped him off and i babysat the back neighbors till 11.
today at the last minute i went to tina's bday party which was nice and funny when tony and scott realized the cream was bad looking at my curdled tea after they'd drank like 9 awwwww poor guys the look on their faces! lol
then i learned to play drums which was really cool! i'm really good, since my dad was an ear musician i inherited it he said.
(p.s. everyone else in my family seems to be doing better than ever, or well, i dunno about elliot, but my parents. but 4 me the depression that threatened for so long is like touch and go, but morgan takes it away and really really helps because he understands me and only another month or so...)we'll see how this goes...