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i have that feeling. you know, that feeling that you're too upset to cry. you feel like youre going to puke because you're so upset? that's the feeling i have right now. and i dont know what to do with myself.
the doctor told me i probably wont be able to play this season.
you'd think it wouldnt upset me this much but i can't not play. i just cant do it. i can't. i just i can't even think of anything else to type. it's like i can't move, i can't talk, i can't function. i'm devastated. i've had such a shit year between my motherfucking asshole of a mother, one day maybe i will tell you all why i hate her so you guys wont think me a bitch, then my motherfucking parents and now this? cmon. what do you want from me?
i can't do this anymore.