update-
ok well its been awhile since ive wrote anything in here, but alot of shit has been going on. first off, me and jonathan scott had been talking alot and got back together but that didnt last. its so hard for me anymore to be with someone especially with noah's dad comming around. i dont know what it is but something about him makes me smile and i dont know what is going to happen. i pray to god that this whole thing isnt a game he's playing just to make me feel better about him being with noah. cuz if it is, i just fucked my life up even more! trust is the hardest thing for me and im not completly trusting him yet but the lil things he does and the way he looks at me and noah just makes me smile and wanna cry (happy cry). i want him in noah's life but does that mean he has to be in mine also?? anf if me and him dont work things out between us am i ever gonna be able to have a relationship with someone else or did he ruin that for me too??? i dont know what to do anymore!this whole situation is so confusing that it makes me feel so lost and really there is no one that could understand or even know what its like to try and help. thats why it sux sooo bad!
other than that, everything is good, noah is doing great and getting big! im doing good health wise...lol
i mived back to my dads house for good, i couldnt take it out at my moms anymore plus she is moving by the end of the month so i had to get out of there sooner or later. ummm i havent really done much except this weekend heather came over and saterday we went to the sharpsville/kennedy game for a lil bit then came home and my dad watched noah so me and her could go visit some friends who were having a party in a cornfield! it was awesome we had sooo much fun! we didnt get home till 4 am! but that was ok cuz we didnt leave my house till like 11:30 cuz dad was at work all day. then yesterday me daddy n heather went over to eastwood to look at some stuff and then washed heathers car and then she went home and greg came over to hang out with me! =) im so glad we are friends again. its good to have him here to talk to and help me with all the bullshit and problems in my life. but i dont know what im doing today, noah's dad is supposed to come see him i think today but i havent heard anyhting yet and i have to go see my g-ma at some point! but im done for now, noah's sleepin so im gonna take a shower and relax!
cya <3
other than that, everything is good, noah is doing great and getting big! im doing good health wise...lol
i mived back to my dads house for good, i couldnt take it out at my moms anymore plus she is moving by the end of the month so i had to get out of there sooner or later. ummm i havent really done much except this weekend heather came over and saterday we went to the sharpsville/kennedy game for a lil bit then came home and my dad watched noah so me and her could go visit some friends who were having a party in a cornfield! it was awesome we had sooo much fun! we didnt get home till 4 am! but that was ok cuz we didnt leave my house till like 11:30 cuz dad was at work all day. then yesterday me daddy n heather went over to eastwood to look at some stuff and then washed heathers car and then she went home and greg came over to hang out with me! =) im so glad we are friends again. its good to have him here to talk to and help me with all the bullshit and problems in my life. but i dont know what im doing today, noah's dad is supposed to come see him i think today but i havent heard anyhting yet and i have to go see my g-ma at some point! but im done for now, noah's sleepin so im gonna take a shower and relax!
cya <3