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saw patrick wolf last night and it was a dream. he is so absolutely amazing.
i'm feeling a bit more optimistic these days but my moods are still so up and down all the time.
V asked me the other day if i was depressed. i guess she's noticed how tired i've been lately and how i've just been napping all day. she was being really nice but i feel so extremely uncomfortable talking to anyone about that kind of stuff so i just lied and said that i was slightly homesick but that nothing is wrong at all.
the thing is, nothing really is wrong.
except that i'm a fat cow and worry constantly that i will ever be good enough for anybody.
i've been slacking the past few days but tomorrow i'm going to start getting a hold of myself again.
also V has been advising me to take this stuff called Tran which is basically omega 3 oil and i know i really should be taking supplements but i tried it once and felt like i was just eating a spoonful of fat and just don't think i can do that every day (yet i can binge on shit?? i'm so contradictory).
haven't purged for a few days either, but am starting back with restricting tomorrow.
i'm feeling a bit more optimistic these days but my moods are still so up and down all the time.
V asked me the other day if i was depressed. i guess she's noticed how tired i've been lately and how i've just been napping all day. she was being really nice but i feel so extremely uncomfortable talking to anyone about that kind of stuff so i just lied and said that i was slightly homesick but that nothing is wrong at all.
the thing is, nothing really is wrong.
except that i'm a fat cow and worry constantly that i will ever be good enough for anybody.
i've been slacking the past few days but tomorrow i'm going to start getting a hold of myself again.
also V has been advising me to take this stuff called Tran which is basically omega 3 oil and i know i really should be taking supplements but i tried it once and felt like i was just eating a spoonful of fat and just don't think i can do that every day (yet i can binge on shit?? i'm so contradictory).
haven't purged for a few days either, but am starting back with restricting tomorrow.