behind a thick skull

[xxbabynightsxx]

i dont know how to put n e thing into words...ever since i went to a party tonight i realized that i dont like trowbridge.or trowbridge ppl...wel sum i like.. i lost my bset friend to the "tuffest guy"@trowbridge...i dont ever know her n e more..i dont kow whats going on in her life...shes doesnt call me lkilke she used too...n i dont call her cuz i dont try..shes alwayz with him.i went to this party when i coulda hung out with someone worth hanging out*my cuzin n jen* but instead i ditched them for a party that i go to all the time that has to much drama, i fucked everything up....i have no fucking clue whats happenin with me n chris n e more.....,its all kinda retarded cuz i dont know shyt bout him...i realized this.. i was talking to my friend at work bout him, i dont know his last name, his fav colour, his birthday i d ont know shyt bout him.....my parents are fucking dick heads, my mom is going in for surgury on friday n im going with her, n its a full day, n i scared n paranoid for her sake..i heard all surgurys could lead to deeath..n if i lost my mom i wouldnt know what to do..i fucked things up with my cuzin n i know that for a fact. I want to hang out with old n new friends this summer..as much as a i can..lmy boss hates my life at work...he called me a bitch n told me basically to quit my job before he fires me...i dont know what to do ne more..i dont know half my friends n e more...cuz i thought it was all bout me...me..me...meso im sorri to all...n i juiss hadda spill

o n theres more...but im not saying..cuz i do know this is public

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