"i tear my heart open, i sew myself shut. my problem is that i care too much..."
so...i tried to be all poetic about this...it's really not working. i guess i'm losing my touch. lol.yeah...Kelly [my roommate] and i are through. it's officially over. we had it out on the way to work, and i got there and cried for about two hours. it's really not easy working like that. i guess it's good that we were slow. Luckily i had a lot to do to keep me busy. Robert, her ex-boyfriend and one of the guys living with us, called me and convinced me to stop by the apartment after work, because i planned to stay away for a few days. I went by there to grab some clothes and it turns out that what he wanted was for her and i to talk. That didn't work too well. It's basically come down to the fact that, we got into this friendship because she needed me as much as i needed her. She doesn't need me anymore, but she knows that i still need her for her transportation, and she holds the shit over my head. She's gotten into this whole power trip thing, and apparently she thought that she could overcome me. Little Leo me. That's cute. Now she thinks that i'm going to come out of this situation with my tail between my legs. What she doesn't realize is that i've yet to come out of one of these situations without my head held high, and i'm not going to start now. Yeah...so, we're breaking the lease. Unfortunately, it's going to take two months to do that, and an extra month and a half's rent. Lovely. Don't know where i'm going to get that from, but we'll see...well, i'm at Katie's...i need some sleep. I'm gonna go now...i'm emotionally drained today from all the efforts...ya'll have a better nite than i've had...