"it's the way he looks at you, it says to me this isn't over..."

[xxautmnsflamexx]

Today's been...kind of lonely. I woke up to an empty house. Kelly, Robert, and Trent were all at work. I got up and unloaded the dishwasher. I sat down and watched some of that soap opera "Passions". I felt like my brain was melting. But, i couldn't get anything else to come in on the tv, and i couldn't find anyone's dvd's. Robert came home at that point, and went into Kelly's room to do whatever. Then Kelly came home and went in there with him. Oh, they're dating now or something. I don't mind, whatever, but it just makes me feel kind of alone...They're always hiding in her room now, and when Trent is home, he's out on the balcony talkin to his girl...and then there's me. And my kat's. You know, that's why i love my kat's so much. I don't think people realize that. I know they'll always be there. Le Tigre's asleep in the chair next to me, and Wilburt's asleep underneath it. Pierce is asleep on the chair next to that, and Autumn is asleep on the floor next to that. My babies are all rite here with me. And Trent's off somewhere else, and Kelly and Robert are in her room. Still. I even talked to her about it. I said, i know ya'll are dating, that's cool, but you know how i am. I need some company every now and then. Especially lately. So, try not to hide in your room so much, eh? But, the only time they've come out since was for dinner last nite, anda little earlier Kelly spent a few minutes with me, runnin around takin pictures of my babies. But, now they're in there again... and i'm sure that the rain's not helping.

My ankle's fucking up bad. I don't know what's wrong with it. Every month or so it swells up, and sends this sharp pain up the back of my leg to my knee...it's been doing it the past three days...i don't know what to do about it.

I'm gonna go smoke...outside...

"It's the way he looks at you,
it says to me, this isn't over...
From the outside looking in
i see there's nothing sacred here,
nothing sacred..."