This is War, Can Not Take It Anymore. I'm Falling Faster And Bleeding More Than I Have Bleed Before
i am muy bored
I havnt written in this thing in a while so i thought i would do that today
I sent my VCU app last week and they should have everything at this point so they might start to review mine soon . I'm putting all of my hopes on this. If i dont get in .. i will be devistated. truly devistated. Normally when i apply for somthing or try out for somthing i try not to tell a lot of people are say too much and get my hopes up just incase it dosnt work out.. but 've given in to this. I cant keep it to my self and I know if things dont go the way i want them too i will be crushed and completely lost. I dont know where i will go if i dont go to VCU, I dont want to go to GMU i dont want to go to FIU i dont want to go anywhere .. except VCU...
Next weekend is Phil's homecoming !!!! i'm super excited but i'm really worried about meeting all of his school friends.. theres apparently 20 people in our group and i'm super scared. We are eating at Thats Amore (sp?) . This is going to sound very girly but i'm worried about my dress because its a long black one and i think everyone is going to wear short knee length dresses and i'm the only one who wont..which would suck and make me feel really out of place in a setting where i already would feel out of place.. oh the minds of girls...
haha my dad just walked in and apparently i owe him 6 $ for text messaging.. but my phone has been dead for over a month.. whatever..
Work is going well.. I think i might have my days changed to monday, wednesday, and thursday rather than monday, wednesday,friday. Thank God for Manny though. He's the only one there who is close to my age and we get to make fun of everyone in the office.. good times..
I'm sorry i cant love you like you want me to. I'm sorry i'm making this difficult. I'm sorry it's not everything that you want. But i cant make myself feel somthing that i dont know i'm capable of feeling. These cuts are deep
love to infinity and beyond
audrey