THEY FUCKING KNOW.

[xxanti_narbxx]

I was binging in the kitchen today. And my sister waslike "you know what I hate?" i was like "what?" she goes, "when i find gross stuff in the sink. it looks like food." and i was like "its prolly my um mascara and makeup." she goes "okay"  then i was purging and she knocks on the bathroom door and is like "you in there?" and im like "hold on" and

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[sugarcane_moon]

I'm with the asking for help thing. Trust me, this cannot be a good thing. I know, blah blah Carley's an old woman blah, but hey...eating disorders. They're not happy things and they're also REALLY not easy to get over. I don't suggest going it alone, and I really don't suggest just continuing along like everything's fine.

Take care of yourself, hon. One of the sad truths of this world is that if you don't, nobody will, especially as you get older.

[xxanti_narbxx]

I don't want help. I was perfectly fine before my sister mentioned it to me. I was happy with my disorder. I think I was at least. I want to contine, but i don't know if I can.

Thanks, and yeah, I'll take care of myself. I know no one else will. I have to depend on myself.

[sugarcane_moon]

I'm no psychologist. Took a few classes, but no psychologist. But I do know that there are a metric ton of health complications that will come from this:

erosion of the enamel of the teeth
dry skin, hair, nails
kidney failure (I had a boyfriend with kidney failure, trust me, it sucks)
heart problems possibly leading to death

Again, I can't convince you to stop, but there you have it.

[xxanti_narbxx]

I took classes too.
I've done it for a year and none of that has happened.

[sugarcane_moon]

Doesn't mean it won't, though. The longer you keep doing it, the more susceptible you become.

Well, as I said, I can't stop you, but I like to remind myself of the line from "She's A Handsome Woman" that goes "I wasn't born to be a skeleton." Granted I have no idea what that means, but uh, I like to apply it to situations like this.

[xxanti_narbxx]

The only thing wrong with me is my throat hurts and my teeth are sensitive to cold things.

Haha, well. ryan's a hypoctite. he's really skinny.

[sugarcane_moon]

You're wearing down the lining of your esophagus and the enamel of your teeth, exposing the nerve endings in the teeth and causing sensitivity.

And I know he's skinny, but that doesn't necessarily mean he doesn't eat, you know? I had a friend in high school who packed away food, didn't binge or purge, and was skinny as a rail. It was just her metabolism.

[xxanti_narbxx]

Uhg, shit. omg idk

i have a friend like that too. but he is a skelton.

[sugarcane_moon]

A lot of people don't really consider the long-term implications of purging, but think about it. You're subjecting delicate tissue and enamel to powerful stomach acid repeatedly. I mean, you might as well swallow battery acid. So even if you're cool with the habit of doing it, it's still not a good idea just for the sake of overall health. And icky teeth aren't sexy.

And yeah, I hated her ass for sitting there eating a tub of cookie dough and not gaining an ounce, lol. We were gonna invent fat transplants together because she couldn't gain weight and I couldn't lose it.

[xxanti_narbxx]

Well, I floss, brush, and gargle mouth wash too. So I dont think they're that bad.

haha, give your weight to her. lol