christ! its always a ?
God Almighty!
Every day is like a new effin battle. I don't understand. It does not compute. I am a good girl, I make good choices and some old fashioned unreasonable unjustified lifestyle is going to keep me from the happiness that I am entitled to. When a person loses hope they then have NOTHING. But its so hard because by trying to hold on to hope with every last fiber that I have I feel like I'm holding on to NOTHING. Nothing but air. I'm reaching out but theres nothing to grasp. These trials we are faced to endure, why? 4 months trancends into 6 hours. Who knows when is the next time. In a long distance realtionship you need trust, communication, honesty, and love.
Its so frustrating when you have all that but no clue when you'll be able to see him again. In person. To touch, to hold, to kiss, to just BE with. to sit and talk and cry and smile. In person. something tangible. so many people i think take for granted how precious quality time really is. what I would give for 5 OR 10 MINUTES. I know I'm not going to give up but it sure is hard not to. All I'm asking for is one weekend and his overprotecting overbearing unreasonable parents will not let it happen. Their excuse: "old fashoined values and uncomfortable with him staying in the same house with me."
christ!
its not like i'm some kind of skankified whore either. its not like I'll throw away all morals and just sex it up the entire time! I wear that True Love Waits ring on my finger as a symbol of my determination to stay a virgin until i'm married. and i will. and he will. thats not a problem. i want to watch a movie, or discuss music, or film or literature. of course we are teenagers. and thats just too much to ask. teenagers cannot be trusted. and God forbid teenagers to love eachother. oh no. that can't happen. they are entirely way to young to convey those types of feelings.
its not too much to ask
its not.
its so frustrating.
ive never felt so helpless.
its out of my control and there is NOTHING I can do to change it.
i guess these tears will fall until i can find something ... more.
i wonder why God is putting me through this. if he went to ASU i could see him at my leisure even if he joins the navy he would still see me for leave 2 or 3 weeks at a time. it seems almost better than this, the ?
HOPE IS THE ONLY MEDICINE FOR THE DEPRESSED.
-Shakespeare
Every day is like a new effin battle. I don't understand. It does not compute. I am a good girl, I make good choices and some old fashioned unreasonable unjustified lifestyle is going to keep me from the happiness that I am entitled to. When a person loses hope they then have NOTHING. But its so hard because by trying to hold on to hope with every last fiber that I have I feel like I'm holding on to NOTHING. Nothing but air. I'm reaching out but theres nothing to grasp. These trials we are faced to endure, why? 4 months trancends into 6 hours. Who knows when is the next time. In a long distance realtionship you need trust, communication, honesty, and love.
Its so frustrating when you have all that but no clue when you'll be able to see him again. In person. To touch, to hold, to kiss, to just BE with. to sit and talk and cry and smile. In person. something tangible. so many people i think take for granted how precious quality time really is. what I would give for 5 OR 10 MINUTES. I know I'm not going to give up but it sure is hard not to. All I'm asking for is one weekend and his overprotecting overbearing unreasonable parents will not let it happen. Their excuse: "old fashoined values and uncomfortable with him staying in the same house with me."
christ!
its not like i'm some kind of skankified whore either. its not like I'll throw away all morals and just sex it up the entire time! I wear that True Love Waits ring on my finger as a symbol of my determination to stay a virgin until i'm married. and i will. and he will. thats not a problem. i want to watch a movie, or discuss music, or film or literature. of course we are teenagers. and thats just too much to ask. teenagers cannot be trusted. and God forbid teenagers to love eachother. oh no. that can't happen. they are entirely way to young to convey those types of feelings.
its not too much to ask
its not.
its so frustrating.
ive never felt so helpless.
its out of my control and there is NOTHING I can do to change it.
i guess these tears will fall until i can find something ... more.
i wonder why God is putting me through this. if he went to ASU i could see him at my leisure even if he joins the navy he would still see me for leave 2 or 3 weeks at a time. it seems almost better than this, the ?
HOPE IS THE ONLY MEDICINE FOR THE DEPRESSED.
-Shakespeare