stop. stop. stop. stop. stop. please help me stop myself.
i wish tonight never happened. i wish it was a nightmare, i wish this school year was all a nightmare, i wish it was summer and i was laying on his couch cudling with him and playing with his hair as we fall asleep, when things weren't so lost, when we could just lay without speaking, talking with our bodies, i rarely say it to him but he knows how much i love him, and he has confesed in secrecy to how he feels for me, i want to go back to those moments, to live in them over and over as i do in my mind.