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1/2 stone to go, and i'm at my goal weight..not quite sre if thats good or not. I set myself the target for the whole year and ive managed to loose 2 1/2 stone since january. My eatinis so particular im not sure if im just being picky or not. I wont drink anythin but water or squash.
Ive never been a calorie counter cos to be honest i dont really understand them. And i think thats the problem.
Cos i just dont eat.
And its just like im always going to be bigger because i just am. Its life, But i just look podgy. Not curvy anymore. But im loosin weight so i dont understand.
My muscles and my bones are fucking up. Ive gotta go to see a back specialist, whatever there called becase my spine isnt strong enough to hold me up anymore.
Years and Years of abuse towards my body, and its probably the same it was like 10 years ago.
Am i ever going to be happy with me?
Dont get me wrong, i am happy. With my life. Cos im doing alright. Just not with me.
Theres to manyt hings i will have to forgive myself for, too many things that i will just have to forgive and forget before i will be a little bit comfortable with myself.
Too much.
But im taking up swimming again to strengthen my back muscles and shoulders hopefully that will gve me some control.
Ive never been a calorie counter cos to be honest i dont really understand them. And i think thats the problem.
Cos i just dont eat.
And its just like im always going to be bigger because i just am. Its life, But i just look podgy. Not curvy anymore. But im loosin weight so i dont understand.
My muscles and my bones are fucking up. Ive gotta go to see a back specialist, whatever there called becase my spine isnt strong enough to hold me up anymore.
Years and Years of abuse towards my body, and its probably the same it was like 10 years ago.
Am i ever going to be happy with me?
Dont get me wrong, i am happy. With my life. Cos im doing alright. Just not with me.
Theres to manyt hings i will have to forgive myself for, too many things that i will just have to forgive and forget before i will be a little bit comfortable with myself.
Too much.
But im taking up swimming again to strengthen my back muscles and shoulders hopefully that will gve me some control.