i'm such a goth on the inside
Or maybe i'm just depressed.
Like always....I only give my live journal attention when I'm sad. Isn't that interesting? My life has been and is filled with misery. Only lately it's misery that I've been putting myself through. Sometimes it's really great, but then other times it's like WHAT THE FUCK-everything is chaos. Like a drug addiction....but its not.
So I'm left here wondering what to do. I don't like the pain but I keep thinking it may go away. Maybe this is where I'm a fool.
I was at such an open happy point not toolong ago....where did it slip off to and how can a mindset change so fast to the darkside?
Is the happiness I'm looking for fake?
Life is like a ride, It goes up and down and round and round and it has thrills and chills and its brightly colored. Now some have been on the ride for a long time now and they begin to question, is this real? or is this just a ride? BUT Don't worry, Don't be afraid ever, because it's just a ride.
This frightens some people,they say "hey shut him up! I have a lot invested in this ride! Look at my boroughs of worry and my big bank account and my family, Yeah shut him up!" But it's always the good guys who try to tell us that...and then people run a muck to shut them up.
Its just a ride.....
Like always....I only give my live journal attention when I'm sad. Isn't that interesting? My life has been and is filled with misery. Only lately it's misery that I've been putting myself through. Sometimes it's really great, but then other times it's like WHAT THE FUCK-everything is chaos. Like a drug addiction....but its not.
So I'm left here wondering what to do. I don't like the pain but I keep thinking it may go away. Maybe this is where I'm a fool.
I was at such an open happy point not toolong ago....where did it slip off to and how can a mindset change so fast to the darkside?
Is the happiness I'm looking for fake?
Life is like a ride, It goes up and down and round and round and it has thrills and chills and its brightly colored. Now some have been on the ride for a long time now and they begin to question, is this real? or is this just a ride? BUT Don't worry, Don't be afraid ever, because it's just a ride.
This frightens some people,they say "hey shut him up! I have a lot invested in this ride! Look at my boroughs of worry and my big bank account and my family, Yeah shut him up!" But it's always the good guys who try to tell us that...and then people run a muck to shut them up.
Its just a ride.....