seasons greetings!
wow it seems like forever since i have updated, but i figure since i still check/read livejournal daily i thought i might contribute... lets see where to start..
i am no longer dancing and i am completely okay with that. my parents got separated, and thats been a journey. in the beginning it was great until my birthday came. i spend my 18th birthday as my first birthday without my dad there. i never knew how much i cared and wanted him in my life until my birtday was about a week away. i never really had a relationship with him, but slowly we are working on it. with alot of mean hateful words from him, i realized im strong and i WILL have a daughter/father relationship with him.
last night i went to the Bodine christmas party witch i was not invited to until 30 minutes before. it was weird seeing all the people i used to adore, but once my parents split seemed to completely disappear. they were all pretty shocked that i showed. it went okay, until i was saying goodbye to my grandpa when he told me he loved me for the first time, deffinately a tear jerker.... blah blah later that night my dad also told me that he loved me for the first time. it ended up to be a very emotional night.
let's see currently i hang out with sheila, lauren, omega, mike, ect. i figure the more friends the merrier. things have been great! i feel as if i have changed, in a good way of course.
oh yea so far i have got accepted into UIW and Our Lady of the Lake, and now im applying to st.edwards. i most admit this whole college thing is scary, but im ready..i think.
so, im single and i LOVE it! ha i used to always feel like i needed a guy for reasons that are unknown but now i rather just enjoy life with my friends, plus im too young for any serious relationship stuff.
christmas is coming and i wasnt excited until recently, excited to see what i will get and excited to give! but i cant wait until my family gets here. over the past 6 months i have grown extremely close to my family, not the bodines. now i can honestly say i understand the true meaning of family. its a strong bond that no one can mess with. aww i got a puppy she is now 1 year old and also very sick, but the vets finally think they figured out the source, and thing this time we will be able to treat it. hopefully. please pray though.
well im starving and also avoiding wrapping presents so im here and i could go on and on but i notice that this post is quite long so this is it.
i am no longer dancing and i am completely okay with that. my parents got separated, and thats been a journey. in the beginning it was great until my birthday came. i spend my 18th birthday as my first birthday without my dad there. i never knew how much i cared and wanted him in my life until my birtday was about a week away. i never really had a relationship with him, but slowly we are working on it. with alot of mean hateful words from him, i realized im strong and i WILL have a daughter/father relationship with him.
last night i went to the Bodine christmas party witch i was not invited to until 30 minutes before. it was weird seeing all the people i used to adore, but once my parents split seemed to completely disappear. they were all pretty shocked that i showed. it went okay, until i was saying goodbye to my grandpa when he told me he loved me for the first time, deffinately a tear jerker.... blah blah later that night my dad also told me that he loved me for the first time. it ended up to be a very emotional night.
let's see currently i hang out with sheila, lauren, omega, mike, ect. i figure the more friends the merrier. things have been great! i feel as if i have changed, in a good way of course.
oh yea so far i have got accepted into UIW and Our Lady of the Lake, and now im applying to st.edwards. i most admit this whole college thing is scary, but im ready..i think.
so, im single and i LOVE it! ha i used to always feel like i needed a guy for reasons that are unknown but now i rather just enjoy life with my friends, plus im too young for any serious relationship stuff.
christmas is coming and i wasnt excited until recently, excited to see what i will get and excited to give! but i cant wait until my family gets here. over the past 6 months i have grown extremely close to my family, not the bodines. now i can honestly say i understand the true meaning of family. its a strong bond that no one can mess with. aww i got a puppy she is now 1 year old and also very sick, but the vets finally think they figured out the source, and thing this time we will be able to treat it. hopefully. please pray though.
well im starving and also avoiding wrapping presents so im here and i could go on and on but i notice that this post is quite long so this is it.