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I came across one of my friends journal entrys, It was a bunch of apologies.. and I came across mine.. and when I looked at it, It honestly brought tears to my eyes.. You never really know how thankful you are of you're friends and their support until you really sit down and think about it. She is a million miles away now, but i Pray that she knows I am always here for her still, and without her, I wouldn't have been able to make it through the situation with Matt.
8. I really do remember the first time we talked, I was so afraid to talk to you. It really took us a long time to talk again, but we share so many common interests about SCIENCE that I can’t believe we didn’t atomically bond right away lol. I loved how you would get some grade, then grumble, then distract me so I wouldn’t do my work either. It was so much fun hiding food behind text books, or watching movies and writing our boyfriends notes then frantically copying the smart people’s answers. Then we stopped talking for a while, and when we did start talking about a boy, I didn’t know what to think. I felt like I had to choose between you and another friend, so I made no choice and I wish I had done more to clear up “the problem” because it’s still going on today. I remember when you invited me over and we had some Bomb-assed Italian, oh boy was Roberto hot lol. I distinctly remember getting kicked out of your house, then you being grounded, then you being allowed out 15 minutes later. I remember sitting with my head in the toilet drinking raspberry flavored water and watching you on the verge of tears. You know, that’s when I really knew that you weren’t a liar, and that you weren’t the kind of person I had been told you were. That night was so long ago, and it was one of the fucking craziest things ever. Well, not as crazy as our “Thanksgiving”, along with our happy little drug drawings on Clinton’s walls. Oh and the popcorn was so funny, Oh oops! More alcohol for you? Yes pleaseeeeee! I still have a picture of you, me n Matt with that huge bong blazed beyond blazed and every time I look at it I seriously start cracking up. Whatever you do in your life, whether you’re finding God, or finding Pleasuretown - I’m not mad at what you do, ever. It means so much that you sit and try to help me with my problems, and even though my advice isn’t exactly great all the time, I always want to be there to lighten your sad/bad mood. I love you sweetie.
Hunni, I love you. You are such a beautiful person Inside and out.. I hold nothing against you, especially when it came to choosing sides.. I am just so thankful we did not let them ruin our friendship.. you will always hold such a big place in my heart and I will always be the 1st person by you're side. I miss you.