callmedifferent.
Back in December, I was in a need for a good Jonas community where I could just talk without being judged. & as if I had some sort of genie, I found one.
CallUsFreaks ; the sisters to my soul ; because that's just the way we roll.
Uncensored Jonas Brothers Community; all discussions in fun and for laughs. I joked around on there alot. There was no harm done and I just found myself loving that community almost more than the boys. The girls there were hysterical and so laid back. I just loved it so much. Each and everyone were so real, and weren't some bubbly fangirls. They were me. Sarcastic, doesn't stick up for the boys when they know it'll be pointless, makes fun of them sometimes just for a good laugh; all in pure fun as well, useless, hilarious jokes about a relationship with them..blahblahhblahhh. It was amazing. I loved it so much.
Loved.
I was there for months, and I was one of the lucky ones that had been there since day 1. Literally. The day the community opened up, I happened across it and joined.
I found myself checking there before anything else when I got online for the day. I'd spend up to an hour or more a day commenting, and laughing at the commentaries on there.
But in late May, something brought me really close to God. Something inside of me had sparked and when I finally did think about the community again, I felt guilty. Some of the discussions I laughed at, and sometimes was apart of..were so against my morals entirely. So I just left.
I didn't leave the community, I pretty much left JB behind entirely. But I felt that was weird after awhile and finally came back.
I love those girls so much. they are absolutely amazing. But what's sad it probably one or two actually know who i am, even after everything I've posted there. I'm not popular there, yet it holds something special to me.
That was the place I could go to whe I was stressed and I'd forget everything.
That's what is making everything hard right now. What I feel is best for me is to leave the community completely. & never come back.
The comments are getting to me..
just today, the discussion was about some little 12 year olds over at Team Jonas who were talking about CallUsFreaks and all of the discussions that they think are disrespectful to the boys. Like how girls there talk about having sex with them when they wear a purity ring. But some other things as well.
When I read all of the comments from the members, and how they all pretty much said, "GTFO" or "Geez, some people are so sheltered" it made me so sad. Because I knew what I'd get either blocked, or hated for.
I agreed with these little twats at Team Jonas.
If any member is reading this, you're probably thinking I'm 13 and just have had no education in that area before so I automatically think wrong of it.
SO WRONG.
I'm 17. I know alot, trust me. Thus me saying I joked about it alot with you guys. I had all of those awesome discussions there, that made me laugh for the rest of the week like vikings(LMFAO!), chipmunks, and blue steel face.
& many other things ONLY a CUF member would even get.
Which makes it so hard for me to get myself to leave this place. But I'm sure after a member reads this, I'll never be welcome there again. & I'm sorry. I truley am.
I'm going against the girls I used to stick up for,
But my relationship with God means more to me than anything.
So I really hope I can get myself to leave soon.