hey
hey... things are looking a bit better..all i need to do is get this job and try arder to make things better.. i went out with duffy n gina today might be goign out with them agin tomorrow will have to wait and see ... kinda wanna see karen too i dont wanna ditch her... she is going thro to much shite for me to do that.... im also defonaitly goig to go to the job center i said id go for months but i keep puttting it off i dont know why.. i think subconciously i just dont want to get a job im not ready for it i just want to stay a kid n go out with mates.. but thats not wat lifes all about.. i have to grow up mature a little. i was thinking last nightg about the old times with david n aaron n sarah.. i really really really want to start hangign about with them again i miss them all soooooo much.... i do like all the new friends i have but i miss the good times i had in the past too.well tomorrow im gonna have a chat with the parentlas n tell them exactly how i feel i cover it like i have with everything latly.. i bottle everything up noadays i never used to do that any one could take me for face value but i dont think im like that any morei think im alot quiter than i used to be.. but im gonna try n be me again the old me ... the real me.. well i better be off my mum will shoot me for being on so late lol night every one xxx