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why do i deal with this. sometimes i wish i could fall asleep and not wake up to this, not wake up to him. to them, all the girls. i wish i could show him the river of tears i cry at night. ever more than that i wish he would feel a lil bad. i can't handle this feeling i just cry at night when no one sees. id on't know how to make things ok. i don't kno how to get him out of my head when i need him so badly. i almost wish he would just use a knife instead of sleeping with all these girls.
i can't take this stress either i've been getting sick which gets me worried about all the lil "gifts" i've gotten from him. soemtimes i wonder i am still alive and how much longer i have to live.
i can't take this stress either i've been getting sick which gets me worried about all the lil "gifts" i've gotten from him. soemtimes i wonder i am still alive and how much longer i have to live.