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[xx_serndipty_xx]

what the hell is wrong with him. he tells me one thing and does another. how long do i have to wait for him to not b a slut. this is why i wasn't hanging with him as much i didn't want to kno about all of the girls i hate hearing about them. it makes me feel like less of a person. i feel like an object used and then tossed aside with no real value. i expect it no ... i'm almost numb to it. not that it doesn't hurt but its like a lost, what can i do feeling now. i just wish i knew why i wasn't enough or why when he's drunk he goes towards a girl everytime. the worst part about last night is i knew as soon as they all said a girl would b there and and they were drinking that he was going to fool around with her. i feel soo stupid for thinking i was anything special. i don't even matter to him at all. i will always love him from the bottom of my heart i just am tired o not feeling he loves me back. everything i do is for him. i tired to not love him but i can't he is one of those people that once u meet him u can never stop loving him. when ever he is there i focus on him becuz he lights up the room. how can he not see how great he is!!

i have someone great what is wrong with me i feel like shit ... but i have to deal with it cuz i always will:(