remember all the feelings & the day they stopped.
"no thought was put into this- i always knew it would come to this. things have never been so swell. i have never failed to feel. pain, pain, pain. you know you're right. i'm so warm and calm inside, i no longer have to hide. let's talk about someone else. steaming soup against her mouth. nothing really bothers her, she just wants to love herself."
& that sums it up all too well. life is confusingly complicated & sometimes it sucks.
eh, things have been okay, i guess. things aren't extraordinary- but things aren't terrifyingly horrible, either. it'd just be nice if i had a REAL reason to get out of bed in the morning. i don't really have anything in particular getting me going, you know? hm, how lame am i? very.
my weekend was pretty fun, as usual- i live for my weekends. we didn't have school friday 'cause of a teacher workday, but i had show choir 12:3O-3:3O, so...yep. that was incredibly exhausting, but i loved every minute of it. stanny stopped us several times when we were practicing only to exclaim, "DEANNA! that was really good! everyone look at Deanna!" & like, once or twice, she made me dance while everyone watched, since apparently i was setting such an excellent example, what?! hahaha. she put me front & center for "sam." word. needless to say, i was a little embarassed, but who doesn't love being the center of attention?! our first REAL show performance is february 15 & i couldn't be any more excited!
i had to work at 4:15, so i didn't have time to go home or anything, so- basically i had 45 minutes to kill, so i changed & went to taco bell. got my food, brought it to work & ate while watching sports center. SO PUMPED UP for next week, by the way! heck yeah. worked 4:15-9:3O, it wasn't anything special. frankie & i always have the best time. he holds me together. got into a fight with john friday night, what else is new?! i reckon we're over it- he's my best friend, we love each other too much to be upset for too long.
today would've been our one-year anniversary, by the way. HAHAHA. gotta love how my best friend is the first guy i ever really fell head over heels for. funny how things work out, but i wouldn't have it any other way.
saturday was lazy fun. slept in like woah, finally got up, chilled for awhile. took a shower, picked kristen up & we went to friendly's for dinner. saw pattio [patrick], jessie & nate. good times. stopped by target afterwards to get a few things, went back to my crib- watched movies & had girl bonding time. we had some good talks, i love the girl<33 finally fell asleep around 3:3Oam.
got up this morning only to find out our 1-6 show choir choreography rehearsal had been canceled. i was kinda bummed out, 'cause i really wanted to go. oh well. so basically kristen & i decided to be bums & just chill & eat watching CMT for awhile. finally took her home around 3 & i haven't really done much since. lazy but fun weekend, i s'pose.
TOO BAD WE WERE SUPPOSED TO GET A SNOWSTORM THIS WEEKEND.
totally didn't happen. lame x 14
full week of school this week, what is this?! craziness, that's what.
i need a new username, new livejournal, new background, new everything. who wants to help?! since i'm LJ retarded & all.
eh, i'm out. tons of lovins<33
& that sums it up all too well. life is confusingly complicated & sometimes it sucks.
eh, things have been okay, i guess. things aren't extraordinary- but things aren't terrifyingly horrible, either. it'd just be nice if i had a REAL reason to get out of bed in the morning. i don't really have anything in particular getting me going, you know? hm, how lame am i? very.
my weekend was pretty fun, as usual- i live for my weekends. we didn't have school friday 'cause of a teacher workday, but i had show choir 12:3O-3:3O, so...yep. that was incredibly exhausting, but i loved every minute of it. stanny stopped us several times when we were practicing only to exclaim, "DEANNA! that was really good! everyone look at Deanna!" & like, once or twice, she made me dance while everyone watched, since apparently i was setting such an excellent example, what?! hahaha. she put me front & center for "sam." word. needless to say, i was a little embarassed, but who doesn't love being the center of attention?! our first REAL show performance is february 15 & i couldn't be any more excited!
i had to work at 4:15, so i didn't have time to go home or anything, so- basically i had 45 minutes to kill, so i changed & went to taco bell. got my food, brought it to work & ate while watching sports center. SO PUMPED UP for next week, by the way! heck yeah. worked 4:15-9:3O, it wasn't anything special. frankie & i always have the best time. he holds me together. got into a fight with john friday night, what else is new?! i reckon we're over it- he's my best friend, we love each other too much to be upset for too long.
today would've been our one-year anniversary, by the way. HAHAHA. gotta love how my best friend is the first guy i ever really fell head over heels for. funny how things work out, but i wouldn't have it any other way.
saturday was lazy fun. slept in like woah, finally got up, chilled for awhile. took a shower, picked kristen up & we went to friendly's for dinner. saw pattio [patrick], jessie & nate. good times. stopped by target afterwards to get a few things, went back to my crib- watched movies & had girl bonding time. we had some good talks, i love the girl<33 finally fell asleep around 3:3Oam.
got up this morning only to find out our 1-6 show choir choreography rehearsal had been canceled. i was kinda bummed out, 'cause i really wanted to go. oh well. so basically kristen & i decided to be bums & just chill & eat watching CMT for awhile. finally took her home around 3 & i haven't really done much since. lazy but fun weekend, i s'pose.
TOO BAD WE WERE SUPPOSED TO GET A SNOWSTORM THIS WEEKEND.
totally didn't happen. lame x 14
full week of school this week, what is this?! craziness, that's what.
i need a new username, new livejournal, new background, new everything. who wants to help?! since i'm LJ retarded & all.
eh, i'm out. tons of lovins<33